Call Me Daddy Harry Styles

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After Harry walked out he walked back in looking broken.
He told me about his past and how Debra changed him .
He looked scared .
I never saw that side of Harry .
Now we are sitting here in our own little trances thinking about the stories we told eachother .
I could feel liquid dripping down my arm as it dangled on the side of the bed .
I knew my fresh cuts were to deep causing them to bleed again.
I decided to go clean them and wrap them up because it was selfish of me to cut .
When i got there i took off my bloody shirt and began to rinse them off under the warm water .
It stung it would never beat the pain i felt when i was covered in semen hiding from anything and everyone.
I began to wipe off the blood when the bathroom door slammed .
I looked behind me and heard a crash making me jump.
I hurriedly bandaged my cuts and went to see what had been crushed . It was a picture of me and Harry on our honeymoon . Happy
I went to find Harry he was knocking every picture we took on our honeymoon onto the floor everyone of them shattering .
" Harry Stop" i said trying to not think of all of the pictures he was trying to ruin
" Fine ill stop" he said
He stopped for a few minutes before started again
" You said you would stop"
" HOW DOES IT FEEL . HUH HOW DOES IT FEEL WHEN I SAY I'LL STOP BREAKING THESE PICTURE FRAMES AND I LISTEN FOR A FEW BEFORE STARTING AGAIN "
He was using this as an example for my cutting
" I dont like it"
" WELL I DONT LIKE IT EITHER HAVING TO SEE SOMEBODY SO BROKEN OVER SOMEONE WHO DOESNT DESERVE HER TEARS . HAVING TO SEE MY WIFE TELL ME SHE WAS RAPED AFTER CUTTING HER ARMS BECAUSE SHE DOESNT TRUST THAT THE PERSON SHE MARRIED CANT FIX HER"
" WELL IM SORRY BUT YOU DONT KNOW WHAT IF FEELS LIKE , TO HAVE TO DEPEND ON A BLADE TO MAKE YOU FEEL LIKE YOU MEAN SOMETHING , YOU DONT KNOW WHAT IT FEELS LIKE TO BE RAPED BY YOUR OWN FATHER, YOU DONT KNOW HOW IT FEELS TO BE A BURDEN , YOU DONT KNOW HOW IT FEELS TO GO THROUGH ANY OF THAT "

Harry Pov

I do know how it feels to have to do all those things. Instead of being raped i was beat . Everything else i know how it feels she doesnt know and she doesnt deserve to know .

I didnt feel like yelling at her . I didnt feel like being here . I wanted her to learn something .
I walked to our room . To the bathroom she followed because she wanted to pick a fight
I picked up the blade and cut myself in front of her. I cut my self more and more as i thought about what she said i looked her dead in her dull eyes as i cut deeper each time
" Stop it" she said
I continued
" No Harry stop" she said coming towards me but i backed away

Maya Pov

I followed him into the bathroom.
He picked up the blade i didnt throw away .
He was about to do it and i was frozen i couldnt move or speak .
He drug the blade against his skin multiple times.
This was how it felt to watch the person you love self harm .
It felt horrible seeing him with no emotion in his eyes .
Those bright eyes were dark you could hardly tell they were green.
" Harry Stop"
He cut deeper like he couldnt feel a thing
" Harry no stop" i said stepping towards him
He wouldnt stop he switched to his other arm .
I took the blade from him and threw it away .
He was looking down at his skin
It wasnt the tan color anymore it was pale
There was blood all over his right arm
He just stayed there didnt say a thing
" Why did you do that " i cried
" Get out"
" No"
" Get out "
" No"

He wouldnt answer my question
" Wh-
" BECAUSE OF YOU . YOU THINK THE WORLD REVOLVES AROUND YOU , YOU THINK THAT YOUR THE ONLY ONE WHO HAD GONE THROUGH THIS " He said pointing to his bleeding arm

Harry Pov

I regretted saying that but she needed to know that others go through it .
She had tears in her eyes as she looked to my arm
All these cuts were gonna leave scars.
I remember when my mum saw my scars .

Flashback

" Who did this to you " she said crying
" Dad , Myself"
" Honey he isnt worth it you should be happy "
" I cant "
Flashback End

I remember that day she did the same thing i just did and from that day on i have never until now

I looked to Maya she was still looking at my arm .

I rinsed the blood off . There was so many cuts . I bandaged it and i left her staring .

I didnt shed one tear because i knew those cuts was to prove to Maya . She stronger then whats she proven to be .

Maya walked out of the bathroom.
She looked shocked .
" Why did you do that "
I shrugged not having an answer
" I love you "
I didnt expect that .
I looked to her she was smiling like crazy all of a sudden
" I love you too" i said smiling a little
" Promise you wont do that again"
" You first "
" I wont if you wont "
" I promise " she said holding her pinky finger out
" I promise " i said tangling my pinky finger with hers

*~*~*~*~*

When Harry and I woke up we went to the doctor because i was in pain.
We figured out it was just the baby kicking so we decided to get an ultrasound

Memories of Yesterday played in my mind

He explained why he did it before we went to sleep .
I now know that me cutting affects others around me and that some people go through thing worse that i do .
Both me and Harry got our cuts checked and Harry had to get stitches for some of his .
I still cant believe how he just took that blade and damaged his arms so badly to get me to understand how it feels to see someone harming themselves.

We were currently at Starbucks having breakfast because we didnt feel like cooking.

For some reason Harry didnt wear long sleeve . He didnt have a bandage on either it was like he wasnt ashamed .

" Why arent you wearing long sleeve "
" Do i have too"
" Babe their is tons of cuts on your arm"
"Your point is "
" People can see them "
" Thats how you get over it "
" People are judgemental though"
" Let them be"
" Fine " i said looking at my clothes arms and back up to a staring Harry
" You know yesterday we probably both forgot their was a baby inside of you growing belly " he said lowering his head to my stomach
" she is only two months in there" i said rubbing my bump
Harry helped me up so i could show him my belly
" A she " he said shocked
I forgot i didnt tell him the gender it was supposed to be a surprise
" A she" i repeated
" So i have to deal with twice the eye rolling and finger snapping "
I giggled
" Yes "

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Boring way to end this chapter.
I think this was the best one i made .
Hope you like it