the new boy

Chapter 26

Rachel PoV;

One month later

I cant believe how long me and Jc have been together, 2 months already. It's flew in, but time does fly when you're having fun. I feel so much better, I haven't harmed myself in 3 weeks and it's all thanks to Jc. I'm still my anti depressants, I don't feel I need anymore but Jc Insists, just for another little while, I'm not going to argue with him.

Me and Jc are going to a party for the first time in a long time tonight, it's Blairs 'before her birthday' birthday party, I would be a horrible friend not too attend and I think it will be good for me. Jason is going which makes a little on edge but Jc will be by my side wherever I need to go. Jc's in the shower right now and I'm tempted to go on with him, I'm trying to push myself to have sex again, because I know that's what he wants, but he's been so understanding that I'm just not ready, I just fear he will get bored and leave me.

I look to my right to see Jc coming out of the bathroom and entering my room, his abs were still wet and he had his towel round his waist, Damn, I want to, but I'm scared.

"Jc can we talk?" I said looking down at my feet

"You aren't breaking up with me are you?" he said quickly

"No but I fear you're gonna leave me" I said slowly looking up at him

"What are you talking about?" he said sitting next to me holdin my hand

"Because I'm not ready for sex, and before us that's really all you wanted, I feel like you're gonna get bored waiting for me to be ready and leave me, I'm pretty sure other girls could be less damaged" I said pulling with a strand of my hair

Jc lightly tapped my thigh as he didn't want to hurt me "Rachel don't say that, a relationship isn't all about sex, and sure that's all I wanted before but you've changed me for the better, I want to be with you Rachel nobody else"

I felt my eyes fill up with tears and I hugged him tight. "Thank you" I whispered

"No, thank you" he said rubbing my back "Now come on, you've showered and you're hair is dry, it's 6pm we don't have to leave for another two hours, GET READY!" he said waving his arms around in the air

I laughed and went through to my bathroom, I had picked out a long sleeved, short at the bum red maxi dress to wear, my scars hadn't completely faded yet so I wanted to make sure they weren't visible. I curled my hair and put on some makeup, I don't a brown smoky eye with a brown lip liner all over my lips and I clear gloss. I felt good because I hadn't done this since the incident.

"Aw come on you can't put us on a sex ban but come out looking like that" Jc said pulling me closer to him

"You know I would Jc but as I said I'm not ready" I said back

"That's not what I meant babe" he said slowly kissing my lips and lightly squeezing my bum

I pulled away as I didn't want to lead him on "We should call a taxi, it's almost 8" I said walking downstairs swaying my hips because this was a tight dress and I know he was looking

The taxi arravived outside and after a couple pre drinks we were more than ready to go, Blairs was only a 30 minute walk away but we decided to get a taxi. The whole ride there Jc had his hand on my thigh and was kissing my passionately, I know he had a little too much pre drink and he wanted more but I didn't want it, not now.

We got into the party and Jc came with me to greet Blair, I hadn't seen her in about a month so I hugged her for a bit

"Babe do you mind if I go talk to a friend I'll be right over there?" Jc shouted over the music

"Sure that's cool" I said instantly regretting it as I know I needed him and Blair won't stick around long

"How you been, I haven't seen you in so long" Blair said smiling, she looked great

"Yeah I've been ok, how have you been?" I asked

"Good yeah" she said back

We spoke for about 10 minutes until something caught Blairs eye

"I see Jessica I've gotta go, talk soon" before I could say bye she had ran off, I looked over to were Jc had went but he was gone, it was a girl he was talking to so now I'm worried.

I took a walk upstairs to find him as I was getting worried, I didn't even care if I bumped into Jason anymore I couldn't find Jc. I looked in all the bedrooms Except one, Blairs room. I peered round the door slightly to see Jc and some random chick sitting on her bed, She looked shocked and Jc started laughing, she said something to him but I couldn't quite make it out over the music, I looked back round to see if anyone else was in the hall but they weren't, incase I looked like a creep you know? and when I looked back round I saw Jc unhooking her bra, I quickly too steps back away from the door, I didn't want to see anymore, I felt my heart beat in my ears, my stomach hit my feet, I ran downstairs out of the house and threw up in the garden, people were round about me staring but I couldn't care less, I just wanted to go home, I was crying and my makeup was ruined, I pulled my phone out from my bag and called a taxi to take my home, I can't believe this, how could he.