the new boy

Chapter 25

Jc's PoV;

it's been about a week now since I first seen Rachel's cuts, she promised me she would try stop and so far there's been no progress, I've tired keeping her occupied, but she needs to shower every night and at least 4 out of the these 7 days she's done it there, I know she cant just stop because I'm aware it doesn't work like that, but it's hurts so bad when she comes out the shower I ask her to show me her arms, she pushes them out in front of me and they are still bleeding, tears streaming down her soft gentle face. Today I'm taking her to get some help, the help that she needs, she doesn't know about it yet and I think she'll be so mad at me, but I'm doing it for her own good. I told her to get up and dressed because we were going for ice cream, I'm still going to take her for ice cream, just after she's been to the doctors, they need to check for infection and some sort of solution.

"Ready to go?" I said smiling standing by the front door

"Sure" she said walking towards me, she looked happy, I loved it when she seemed happy.

When she got next to me I kissed her softly putting my hand on her face, she tasted good, is that weird. We got into the car and I put on some music, it's probably my favourite song (San Holo~ Fly)
Rachel looked peaceful yet not peaceful, she looks terrified.

"Are you ok?" I said putting my hand on her thigh

"Yes I just don't really like being out the house too much" she said looking at me then back out the window

"You're gonna have to get used to it sooner or later" I said smiling

"Not just yet" she said looking at her feet

We passed he ice cream shop and she didn't notice as she was still looking at her feet in a day dream. I turned the corner too the doctors office and stopped the car, that's when she looked up and gave me a horrible

"What are we doing here Jc?" she said almost gritting her teeth but still looking sad

"I promise I'll take you for ice cream but you have to talk to someone!" I said staring into her eyes

"Jc I'm not getting out of this car" she said crossing her arms and looking away from me

"Please it's for your own good" I said grabbing one of her hands

"Fine, but you stay out of the room and don't bother speaking to me" she pulled her hand away from mine and walked out of the car

"I'm only trying to help you" I shouted shutting the door behind me

"I know" she said still with her arms crossed

When we got into the doctors office I checked Rachel in while she sat waiting for her name to be called, she didn't speak to me as much as I wanted her too, I thought this was doing the right thing and she'd be happy I'm trying to help.

The doctor came and got Rachel and took her to the room, I stayed put, about 30 minutes later Rachel came back out still not talking to me but gave me a faint smile. We walked out to the car and I tried to grab her hand, she pulled away again and I got upset, I really don't want her to be angry that I lied to her.

"Do you still wanna go for ice cream" I asked putting on my seat belt

"Yes" she said looking as if she was about to cry

"I didn't want to ask incase it was too soon but what happened?"

"The doctor gave me good advice on what to do if I felt like cutting myself and I think I can overcome it, but first I need to overcome something else"

I felt my heart hit my stomach I knew exactly what was wrong with her

"I'm depressed Jc, I knew it would come back I've had enough"

My heart hit my feet, I teared up and grabbed her in for a hug, she wept on my shoulder for a good 5 minutes and lifted her head up

"Can you get my anti depressants for me I don't want to go for them" she said looking up at me

I grabbed her face gently with my hands "of course I can"

I drove to the chemist and picked up her pills, for back into the car and handed them too her with a bottle of water, she took one and we drove off to the ice cream shop. We got ice cream and took it home. We left it in the freezer for a while as it was kinda melted and took it out before bed, we lay in bed watching kick ass two eating the ice cream. I felt so lucky to have her.

I love her.

sorry for not uploading yesterday, I had a little bit of a shitty night, I hope this makes up for it, oh and btw as I said, this will perk up