Where We Should Be

Chapter 10

Zoe's P.O.V

I open my eyes and shut them again immediately because it's too bright. I must've slept in, I deserve it after 8 weeks of school all at once. Or maybe it's because I woke up at 4am to FaceTime Ariana before she leaves. Waves of sadness wash through me at the thought she's gone. Suddenly a song comes to mind as I lay back down with misty eyes. It's an old Taylor swift song Ariana used to sing. I look it up on YouTube and plug in my headphones. Music makes me feel better sometimes so this is worth a try, especially as Ariana loved it so much.

Said it in a simple way,
4am the second day,
How strange that I don't know you at all.
Stumble the long goodbye,
One last hug than catch your flight,
Right when I was just about to fall.

Told myself don't get attached but in my mind I play it back,
Spinning faster than the plane that took you.

This is when the feeling sinks in,
I don't wanna miss you like this.
Come back, be here.
Come back, be here.
I guess you're in New York today,
I don't wanna need you this way,
Come back, be here.
Come back, be here.

The delicate beginning rush,
The feeling you can know so much,
Without knowing anything at all.
And now that I can't put this down,
If I'd have known what I know now,
I never would've played so nonchalant.

Taxi cabs and busy streets,
That never bring you back to me!
I can't help but wish you took me with you...

This when the feeling  sinks in,
I don't wanna miss you like this,
Come back, be here.
Come back, be here.
I guess you're in London today,                         I don't wanna need you this way,
Come back, be here.
Come back, be here.

Ohhhh, ooh.

This is falling in love in the cruelest way...
This is falling for you when you're worlds away....

In New York. Be here.
But you're in London and I break down 'cause it's not fair that you're not around!

This is when the feeling sinks in,
I don't wanna miss you like this,
Come back, be here.
Come back, be here!
I guess you're in New York today,
I don't wanna need you this way!
Come back, be here.
Come back, be here.

Ohhhh, I don't wanna miss you like this, Ohhh oh.

Come back, be here...
Come back, be here...

We may not be in love, that would be a bit weird, but she's my best friend and I love her. I wipe the tears from my face - I guess that's gonna be an emotional song for me now. I can't believe it relates so much...

I'm woken up from my daydreams and thoughts when my mum comes in, I bury   my face in my pillow to hide the evidence of my crying session.
"Zo, c'mon wake up. It's 8:30 and you've got horse riding in half an hour,".
Normally that idea would cheer me up, I love going horse riding, but today I don't feel like doing anything. It almost feels like I'm grieving because I am. I have lost my best friend. I know she'll visit sometimes but let's be real... That's not going to happen very often.

I get up and walk to the bathroom. I'm not going to bother with the whole skin-care routine thing so instead I just splash my face with warm water and apply some foundation and mascara.

While I'm getting dressed I almost tackled  to the floor by Alfie, "you shouldn't be up here!" I giggle and my fluffy dog but I don't kick him out, I just wrap him in my blanket and play with him on my bed.

At least there's still some joy left in me. At least that plane didn't take all my happiness as well as my best friend.