The Pain of having a heart (Sosuke Aizen x reader) [Wattys 2016]

Twentieth Act, Will I love again?

Dedicated to PureNightingale, QueenOfTheNight1211, and rina1233 . Thank you for the support :)

(A/N: hnnnnghhhh O_O will ya look at that face!!! Here's the twentieth chapter. Now go and frolick in the Sosuke Aizen world!)

Gin set down his cup of tea. "So...now do ya understand? That's everythin ya need ta know."

I just stared at the cup of brown liquid sitting on my lap. I kinda felt guilty for ignoring his feelings. I thought it was bad, but I didn't expect it was going to be that painful.

We both sat in silence, Gin looking out the balcony while I didn't find any strength to do anything of the sort.

So Mizuki was the first girl he loved? Then he accidentally killed her and everything went down the drain for him. He almost cried.

He was scared of falling in love for that reason. He'd rather be alone than experience all of that again. But if you looked at it closely...

...he's afraid that he might lose me too.

Noticeably, he has some feelings toward me. He wants to be with me, yes, but it's holding him back. He's hurt so badly that even he got scared.

"Are ya thinkin about somethin?" Gin asked, turning towards me with a little smile on his face. Obviously, he knows that I'm concerned about him.

"Yeah..." I muttered, taking a sip of my tea. But it was cold now, so I spluttered it all over the floor. He chuckled.

"Ya should've drank that when it was still warm and good. Ya think about Aizen-taichou too much."

I blushed a little and punched his arm. "I'm worried about him, okay? How do I block him out from my mind, then?"

He puts on a thinking face, but then he shrugs. "I...dunno?"

I rolled my eyes. "That's the best piece of advice I've heard from you so far."

He sweatdropped, and an awkward smile crept up his lips. "Ya think so? Ehhh...thank you, then! Hehe!"

"I was being sarcastic, you creep." I said.

We became silent for another while, until I asked him, "Will Aizen be okay?"

He glanced at me, his smile fading into a little frown. "...Of course he will. He's not some average man who will mope all day over somethin like that."

I sighed. "Well, can I go to his room and check on him? Just silent tip-toes and a peek through his door."

"Can ya do that without him feeling yer presence by reiatsu?" He asked.

"Um...er...I...ah....ARGHHHHH!!!!"

Gosh, he might even feel my presence before I reach his door! But yeah...it's all my fault he went into distant mode. I just hope he doesn't start listening to one of those emo cds from the world of the living...