The Pain of having a heart (Sosuke Aizen x reader) [Wattys 2016]

Forty-sixth Act, Stay/Never Go

"Our fate lies in the hands of the things we love, and sometimes the things we love are the things that lead us to the destruction of ourselves." -R.M. Drake

(Your p.o.v)

"I'm not giving up yet..."

I stood up shakily, leaning against the wall for support. Even though the freezing winter rain poured down heavily, I just held on.

"Aizen...where did you go? Why did you have to leave me alone?"

I forced my legs to walk, despite being unable to do so anymore. Just a little longer...please bear with me...

"Bear with me until the very end; the end when I see him again."

I saw a silhouette of a person at the distance. He was standing in the rain without an umbrella, and he seemed to be staring directly at me.

"Could it be you....Aizen?"

He was approaching me. My grip on the metal railing tightened. Does this man have bad intentions...? What is he going to do...?

"Why...why do I keep on thinking that it's you when you're already gone...?"

When he got close enough, I saw the entirety of his features. Long brown hair. Large white wings on his back. Eyes that were cold and calculating.

My eyes widened, my heart skipping a beat. It was the man who shared smiles, laughter, sadness, and lies with me. The man that I care about the most.

I tried to walk towards him, only to fall into his arms. "A-Aizen.....is i-it really y-you....?" I said, tears rimming the edge of my eyes.

He smiled. "Yes, (name). I'm right here, don't worry."

I buried my face on his chest, clutching onto his clothes as I cried. "I w-want to s-sit down...I d-don't feel l-like standing u-up..."

He nodded then gently set me down, helping me lean against the wall. Anger suddenly overcame me and I smacked him on the face with the remaining strength I have left.

"WHERE WERE YOU?! D-Do you even know h-how l-lonely it f-felt without you by my side...? YOU'RE JUST A DOUBLE-CROSSING JERK-"

He suddenly wrapped his arms around me, burying his face on my shoulder. "I guess you must hate me now, huh...." He whispered softly.

The wings on his back slowly faded away, along with the rest of his transformation. He was only left with shorter hair, and a slightly tattered version of his clothes in Hueco Mundo.

"If only you knew how much leaving you hurt..."

"I will always love you, Aizen. No matter what."

I tried getting him to let go, but I was too weak to do so. Noticing this, he let go, unable to look at me.

I smiled sadly and cupped his face. "S-Sosuke, l-look at me."

He shifted his gaze towards me. There were tears forming on his eyes, and his face was contorted with sadness. He looked so fragile right now.

I gently leaned my forehead against his, unable to stop myself from crying. "H-How can I hate you....when you mean everything to me?"