When I Say I Love You

New Member

***

KASSANDRA'S POV

Nagising ako na nakayakap kay William..
Im so thankful that he didnt left me.

I hugged him tight and feel the comfort in his arms.
"Thanks Will." I uttered.

It's been what? 4 weeks since he left?

I carefuly got out of the bed, trying not to wake him up..

I'll make him a breakfast.
Its time for him to take a rest.
Palagi siyang puyat sa kakabantay sa akin. Siya na rin ang gumagawa ng trabaho ko. Siya ang kumakausap sa mga kliyente na dapat ako ang gumagawa.

I'd made him a coffee and cooked pancakes.

"Good morning. I smiled at him." Mukhang nagulat pa nga siya nang makita ako.
Inabot ko sa kanya ang tasa ng kape.
He's still speechless.
Pati sa pagkain ay hindi rin siya umiimik. pasulyap sulyap siya sa akin habang kumakain. Nagtataka siguro kasi naparami ang kain ko.

"Okay ka na?" He asked

"Im getting better. Masakit isipin. Masakit kapag naaalala ko pero binubura ko sa isipan ko amg lahat ng masasakit na nangyari. Pilit kong kinakalimutan. Its not easy to move on. At hanggang ngayon, hindi ko pa matanggap. Tatakasan ko ang mga mapapait na alaala. Kasi kung palagi kong iisipin, parang hindi ako makaka move on."

He stared at me.

Binuksan ko ang Email ko at

"Holy shit!"

Nagtaka naman siya sa akin.

"William bakit hindi mo sinabi sa akin na pinull-out nila ang project?!"

"Because dont want you to stress yourself. Marami kanang pinagdadaanan. Dadagdag na naman?"

"But its my obligation! Im the one who fixing things! Im the one who will help the band to make Names in the industry! Shit! Naging pabigat pa ako!"

"Dont mind that. Wag mong isipin yon. The band agreed to it. Iniisip rin nila ang kalagayan mo. Inuna ka nila."

"No! William I have to do something! Alam niyong lahat pero hindi niyo pinaalam sa akin!?"

"BECAUSE WE DON'T WANT YOU TO BE DEPRESSED! THIS THING MIGHT WORSEN THE SITUATION KASS, WE DID ALL WE CAN DO! PERO WALA KAMING NAGAWA. THEY PULL-OUT THE CONTRACT. Wala naman sa amin yon. It doesnt matter. Ang mahalaga ay nagiging okay kana."

"Call them. Now. Papuntahin mo sila dito."

Shit!

***

I made a descision.
I'll find them a better manager who can help them.
Wala akong magawa.
Hindi ko na nabawi ang mga proyekto. Lahat nawala na nang dahil sa akin! It's too late.

They need a better counselor for this. Im a no good.

Magkaharap kaming Lima sa dining table ngayon, walang nagsasalita.

"I called my friend. Her name is Tita Monica. She managed some famous artists. She can help you guys, she's bett-"

"No!" Hinampas ni William ang lamesa.
"Miss! Ano to! Wag naman ganito!" Alex

Zac gritted his teeth and Andy is silent. Parang malalim ang iniisip.

"My descision is final. I found you a new manager. She'll be here any minute now. Pag usapan niyo."

"Kassandra, YOU WILL NOT LEAVE." William

"Im sorry. Im a fucked up manager. I was the one who dragged you into this! I made the situation worst! Im not worthy to call a manager! Because I dont act like one! Im sorry guys. But I need to quit. Para sa ikakabuti ng banda."