The Devil Who Danced At Midnight

juliet

9:10 PM

Why are you ignoring me the whole afternoon? You're not even responding to my texts.

10:46 PM

Oh, am I? 

10:50 PM

Not funny, Mendoza. Spit.

11:01 PM

Oh, am I expected to behave in a certain way or something? Sorry ha, hindi ako na-orient.

11:26 PM

I don't like the sarcastic tone your reply had, Mendoza. What did I do?

11:40 PM

Does it? Sorry, I didn't know I sounded sarcastic already.

11:50 PM

Damn it, Mendoza! Stop going around in circles and tell me what did I do today!

12:13 AM

So now you're mad bc I wasn't replying? Why? Bc you're done with your girl a while ago?

12:14 AM

Are you referring to Julie? We share the same scholarship program, Mendoza! Natural lang na mag-usap kami!

12:16 AM

Faulkerson, you know girls had this intuition, 'di ba? Biologically speaking, males of any species automatically get protective if they're threatened by another male when it comes to their mates. That's the same with females and now that intuition works with that damn Julie!

12:17 AM

I don't mind you adding 'damn' before Julie's name, but the fact you were getting angry at such a trivial thing - we just fucking talked!

12:18 AM

Yup, you did, and you completely ignored me for fifteen whole minutes.

12:21 AM

I wait for you everyday kapag nag-eenjoy ka sa library, tapos ako, hindi mo pwedeng intayin?

12:24 AM

The circumstances are fucking different, Faulkerson! It's like bringing an umbrella on both sunny and rainy days! 

12:25 AM

Why don't you stop with those applications and try to understand the whole thing? We talked. Nothing else happened.

12:26 AM

I was there, Faulkerson, and we are both Communication students. You should know the mixed signals she's sending

12:27 AM

I don't even know what those mixed signals are! I swear, Mendoza, you're overreacting and this whole situation is so petty I don't even know why we're quarreling about this!

12:28 AM

Petty? You call this petty? I watch my man and some other girl flirt - what do you want me to do about this? Just stand there and encourage you to go fuck yourselves?!

12:30 AM

You are exaggerating things, Mendoza! I expected more from someone like you!

12:34 AM

So ganon? Just bc I'm smart - does it mean hindi na ako pwedeng magalit sa maliliit na bagay? Dahil mas understanding ako sa iba dyan, okay lang? Kasi naiintindihan ko naman? Because I was always better than them at situations? Hindi ba ako pwedeng magalit? Hindi ako pwedeng mainis kagaya ng normal na babae? Just bc I was always fucking above normal people, I can't act like one? 

Hindi na ako pwedeng maging tanga, hindi rin ako pwedeng maging mababaw? What other limits are you going to set in this relationship, Faulkerson?

12:37 AM

You're mad. Let's stop talking. People say things they don't mean when they're mad. Mendoza, sleep.

12:38 AM

That's what you're good at, Faulkerson. Treating things like they're trivial when they're not. Simplifying problems when they needed to be solved. Okay, gusto mo 'yan eh. 

12:39 AM

Mendoza.

12:40 AM

You want me not to talk about this? Okay. Not a word, Your Majesty. Wala ka na ulit maririnig sa akin. Ako na rin unang magsosorry, para tapos na 'yung usapan. Sorry.

12:41 AM

Mendoza...

12:43 AM

Matutulog na ako, baka sakaling okay na ako and I'd be flirty again and you'd be proud of me again. Bye.

12:45 AM

Mendoza.

3:01 AM

Okay. I'm not good at apologizing to people especially when I knew I did nothing wrong. But in our case... I'm sorry, Mendoza. But I'm not apologizing because I talked with Julie. I'm saying sorry because I've been insensitive. I'm sorry for making you wait. I'm sorry for being mad at you. I'm sorry for not considering your feelings. I'm sorry for expecting more from you. I'm sorry for letting you sleep while you're still mad.

I'm sorry I'm this smitten I can't sleep thinking you're still mad at me.

4:45 AM

Mendoza, hindi ko alam kung bakit sobrang big deal sa akin ngayon na galit ka. I usually ignore people when I piss them off with my personality... but what's with you?

5:07 AM

I knew the answer now. I'm falling hard, Mendoza. Be mad at me, scream at me, kick me, if you may... but please don't ignore me. I feel like... I'm slowly deteriorating. I'm going to sleep now, but I'd be there early morning to drive you. Please don't cut my balls out. Thank you.