Closer || (n.j.)

Chapter Ten

Chapter Ten--
It's be a couple of days and Nick hasn't even touched me. He only speaks to me if it's about dinner or something to do with his schedule. He's been sleeping on the couch, and it seems like he wants nothing to do with me at this point.

"I don't know what you want me to do." I walk into our bedroom as my boyfriend gets ready for the day. I sit on the bed and patiently wait for his response. I look over and he's just standing, looking at the wall, his jaw clenched and tense. He's trying to keep his cool.

"You think that I can just magically fix all of this and our problems would be solved? Believe me I....," I pause and let the tears fall that were dying to get out," I wish I could Nick. I really do. I'm not ready for this either." By now, I'm whispering because my sobbing doesn't allow me to speak at a louder tone. Still no answer.

"And....how do you think it makes me feel? The fact that you won't even look at me now. Yeah, I went to get checked up without you knowing because I was so scared. I didn't know what to do. Hell, I still don't know what to do." This time, I turn to face him but I'm still sitting on the bed. Nick doesn't turn around, but it looks like he loosened up a bit.

"You wanna know what I thought when I knew I was pregnant?" I waited for his reply. Waiting. Waiting. Waiting.

"What?" He speaks roughly.

"My first thought was you, Nick. I knew you'd wanted a family, but now now. Not with your career and all the chaos that you'd have to bring our child into. I remember you telling me that you wanted to wait, to settle down with someone, marry them, and then have a family. I remember all those things." I say, wiping my tears. He doesn't reply, but turns around and just looks at me.

"But my other thought....," I paused again, crying at the mention of it," was that you were going to leave me. So I wouldn't have anyone to teach me how to deal with any of it. I don't have a Mom, so that wouldn't do me any good. The other night, when you stormed out," once again, I pause and put my head down and cry," I thought you were going to leave me than and there. I truly did." And that was all I had to say to him. Tears welled up in his eyes and he actually came and sat by me.

"I would never, ever leave you." He whispers in my ear, his face in my hair and his arm around me.

"Promise?" The waterworks just keep on coming.

"I promise you with all of my heart Marni. I would never do something like that." This time, he pulls away to look at me. He was crying too. I mustered up a smile.

"No more sleeping on the couch?" I ask him, taking his hand gently.

"I hope not." He chuckles. I sat there and looked at him sternly. He knew very well that he owed me an apology.

"I'm sorry. I overreacted and God, I was so stupid. I didn't know how to handle the situation or that kind of change for that matter." Nick looks down at the floor, looking guilty.

"I forgive you. But I just want you to know, it hurt me a lot. So for future reference, let's not do that again. Let's always be fully honest with each other." I say, putting my hand under his chin and lifting it so he can face me. Nick nods and we lean into each other, our lips meeting for the first time in days. That one kiss sent electricity through my body, the butterflies back. When he pulled away, the taste of his lips still lingered on mine. He looked at me funny, cocking his head to the side.

"What?" He laughs.

"What? Nothing, nothing." I smile and push it aside. He looks at me the same way he looked at me that night at the hotel......

"We should have a dinner date tonight! Here at home!" I suggest, putting my hands on his knees.

"Good idea babe." Nick smiles at leans over to me, his eyes closed and his lips waiting. I kissed him back, biting his lip. An unintended moan escaped my mouth against his, making me kiss him even more. I pulled away and breathed heavily, not taking my eyes off of his.

"I'm gonna go and change quick." It was 4:30 in the afternoon and I was still in my pajamas, wow. I pulled a gray miniskirt from my dresser and a gray t shirt in order to match my outfit. Nick walks out of the room, probably going downstairs. I put on matte, red lipstick and my look was now complete. I wanted look nice for our 'date' even though I was cooking it.

I walked downstairs in my sparkly, silver heels and they click clacked against the hard floor. Nick looked up from his phone at the counter and his jaw dropped. I didn't really think I looked that good. But right now, he was looking at me like I was the only girl in the world.

"You look stunning." He stays standing, but looks as though he's about to faint.

"Well, thank you, but I just threw this together." I pushed a strand of brown hair behind my ear and bit my lip without really thinking about it.

"You better stop doing that. It's driving me crazy." Nick says to me, leaning against the counter.

"What?" I laugh.

"Biting your lip. You know what that does to me." He smirks and raises an eyebrows me.

"Well I'm sorry baby. But I am going start cooking dinner." I go over to the kitchen and get my apron from a drawer that held the hand towels as well. I tie it on myself and then start to make us dinner.

"That was amazing Marni. I had no idea you could cook like that." Nick says after dinner, leaning back in his chair.

"Thank you very much. I didn't know I could do that either, actually." I chuckled and started toward the kitchen which wasn't attached to the dining room. I started to do the dishes and when stood back up straight from putting plates in the dishwasher, I felt soft, gentle kisses on the back of my shoulder. I smile and Nick wraps his arms around my waist, continuing to kiss my shoulder and neck. I turned around in his grasp and let him push me lightly against the counter, his lips meeting mine. We both kept murmuring 'I'm sorry' to one another between kisses.

"I love you so much." Nick whispers in my ear, his hot breath sending chills through my body. I slip away from him, smiling, and stride up to our room to go and shower. Tonight was definitely a success.