Closer || (n.j.)

Chapter Eleven

Chapter Eleven--
I was having these horrible pains in my stomach. It had been at least a month since I found out that I was pregnant. The pains had now woken me up four times in the past half hour. I finally had enough. I sat up and got up from the bed. Nick didn't budge, but Elvis got up right away.

"Shhhh." I put my finger to my lips and shushed the dog. He barked twice and I cursed under my breath as Nick woke up suddenly.

"What? What's going on?" He sits up, balancing on his elbows.

"I...I was just going to ooowwwww." I winced at the sudden pain in my stomach. It felt as though knives were being stabbed into my stomach one by one. I clutched my stomach and crouched on the floor.

"Let's get you to the hospital." Nick gets up quickly, throwing on a shirt that was laying on the floor. He picks me up and slips on some shoes, leaving our dog behind. He rushed me out to the car and put me in the passenger seat, buckling me in. He got in himself and started the car, putting his foot on the gas. I cried out in pain, Nick's hand on my leg the whole time, trying to soothe me. As we drove through an intersection, I felt a sudden mass hit my side of the car. Then I only saw black.

"Don't let go of me, Nick. Please don't leave me." I cry out as I'm curled up in my boyfriend's arms on the side of the road. It was dark outside, except for some ambulance and police lights on the road. There was a big gash in the side of my head and it hurt so bad. Nick was pretty beaten up as well, but not as bad as me. I saw the car rolled over and mangled in front of us.

"I won't baby. I won't leave you." He leans and whispers in my ear quickly, his voice deep and he sounded panicked. He kept saying that to me before we both saw a bright light flashed on us.

"Don't leave. Don't leave." I shut my eyes, tears still falling as I try and make myself smaller in Nick's grasp.

"I won't-" That's what I hear before I feel someone take me from him.

"I won't Marni!" Nick's voice yells before I'm taken into an ambulance.

When I wake up, I have that horrible pain in my stomach, but it feels much worse. I scream in pain, clutching my stomach. When I lifted my head, it felt like one big rock. A nurse rushed to my side and I frantically looked around the room.

"Where is he?" I grab her hand and plead.

"Honey, you need to lay back down. You're just in shock." The Nurse's voice is soft and gentle.

"Where is Nick?" Tears come to my eyes as I feel more pain in my stomach. This time, it goes through my whole body.

"He's in another recovery room hun." I just look up at the ceiling and feel tears run down my cheeks.

"My stomach. It hurts so bad." I tell the Nurse as she looks at a clipboard.

"Alright. We'll get you to another room quickly. Are you pregnant? Or do have some stomach bug?" She stares to wheel my bed.

"I'm pregnant." I choked out, feeling my breath strain. She nods and I'm pushed into a room. There are Doctors around me right away and they tell me to lay down and stay still. All I could think was where Nick was. I was worried about him, I didn't care about myself as much. As soon as they were there, most of the Doctors are gone. There is only a Nurse and a Doctor in the room with me.

"I am sorry to inform you of this after such a horrible accident, but you've suffered from a miscarriage." The Nurse speaks up.

"Oh my...." I gasp and more tears fall from my eyes. I wanted to scream so bad, but it felt like I had no breath left.

"Nick. I need to see him." I demand. They both just looked at each other, confused.

"I need to see my boyfriend." The Nurse shakes her head no and purses her lips. Just then, there's a small knock on the door and I see a familiar face.

"Nick!" I say, happiness over coming me. He's in a wheelchair and a hospital gown. The Doctors and Nurse give us some time to ourselves.

"I would hug you, but I was ordered to not get up from this chair." Nick jokes.

"It's okay. But as much as I don't want to, I need to tell you this." I hold in a breath and wipe my tears away.

"Okay. You can tell me anything."

"It was a miscarriage. That's why I had all those pains in my stomach. They hadn't felt like contractions, so I knew I wasn't due, but something just wasn't right." Nick puts his hand over his mouth and just looks at me, shocked. I cannot believe that all that pain was just me feeling a small life form dying inside of me. I shivered at the thought.

"Are you okay?" Nick breaks the silence and looks up at me.

"I....I don't know." I bite my lip and run my hand through my hair.

"Are you in pain? Physically?"

"No, I'm not." I say calmly.

"You guys can be released once we check you out once more and make sure that everything is okay." A Doctor pops his head in the door. He comes to wheel Nick out, while another Nurse brings a wheelchair in for me. I slide in the chair and she wheels me into a recovery room.

About an hour later, Nick and I got a cab to take us home. He still wasn't ready to drive, and neither was I. Our Expedition was still on the side of the road where we got hit, rolled over and guarded by police tape. I looked at it as we passed, seeing the crash flash before my eyes suddenly. I gasped, not realizing that Nick could hear me.

"Everything okay?" He looks over to me, his face had sympathy written all over it.

"Yeah. Yeah, I'm fine." I lean over and give him a soft kiss on the cheek, feeling myself blush. His own cheeks turned a slight shade of pink. When the driver pulled up to our house, Nick gave him a twenty. He nodded to us as we exited the vehicle and went to our front door. That was when I had realized we spent the night at the hospital, after the accident. I didn't know.

"Hey boy!" Nick happily says when we walk in the entry way, Elvis jumping up at him.

"Hi baby!" I say to Elvis, trying to kneel down to pet him, but it hurts. I wince in pain, my boyfriend not noticing as he starts to walk upstairs to our room. The most I could do right now was bend at my waist a little bit. I pet Elvis on the head and he locked my hand. We walked up the stairs and I badly wanted to take a shower to get the smell of the hospital off me. God, I hated that smell.

"I'm gonna go shower." I told Nick with hesitation in my voice. I wasn't sure how well I'd be able to clean myself if I couldn't bend certain ways. He nodded and gave me a quick kiss before I shut myself in the bathroom. I leaned my back against the door, taking a few deep breaths. I was still trying to comprehend everything that happened. It seemed like it all took place in just one mere second. But I knew that it hadn't. I was that in shock. I turned on the shower and hopped in, taking longer then usual.

"I'm so sorry." Nick said to me when we were laying bed.

"For what?" I looked up from my book and put my bookmark in it. Then it hit me, he didn't even have to tell me. Actually, he didn't respond at all.

"It's okay. It wasn't your fault." I give him a half smile and lay on my side, putting my book up in my bedside table. I put my hand on his chest and just look up at his saddened gaze.

"But it was. I should've looked where I-" I cut him off with a kiss. Cliche, I know, but we do it all the time.

"We're both fine, aren't we? It could've ended up much, much worse. And I know that a miscarriage is a horrible, horrible thing, but I don't think either of us were ready for that sort of thing." I was pouring out all of the thoughts I'd had in the back of my mind all afternoon.

"Yeah, we did end up okay."