Life, Love and Gangs. {Book 1} *In Editing*

I'm Not Yours

Cinder's POV***

I open my eyes to see I'm in a room I've never seen, and then it hits me. I'm at Niall's from last night. I put my hand up to my head and rub my lightly thumping head; I grab my phone and see I have 4 messages.

Hey Cinna, where are you?? Dads getting pissed! - Swifty

Hey Cinna, I've told dad that you are staying at a friend’s, I've given Pyro a spare change of clothes just in case you go to school. xx - Swifty

Message me when you are awake - Swifty

I can't help but feel guilty, I immediately message him back.

Hey buddy, sozz I fell asleep on the drive. I'm at Niall's so I don't think that I'll be coming to school today. xx - Cinna

Okay bud, make sure you drink lots of water today! xx - Swifty

He's such a mother, but I love him. I untie my longish brown hair and run my fingers through it, I walk outside the bedroom to find the boys asleep on the couches and the floor.

"Morning." I hear a voice snapping me back to reality, I look over to the kitchen to see Liam making some tea, what a sweetheart.

"Here, have this. I'm gonna go have a quick shower since you are up." He says handling me the cup of tea and walking to the bathroom in the bedroom.

I look over to one of the couches; I see Niall's blonde hair with a little bit of brown and walk over. I look at his shirtless body, I look at his back covered in tattoos.

I've seen some of the designs before, I can't believe it, they're my tattoo designs. He must go to the Black Angel Tattoo and Piercing shop, that's where I sell my art work and also where my family goes to get their piercing & Tats, the same place I got my nose pierced in fact.

I trace my finger over one of my designs, it was a gorgeous Gun and Rose pattern designed for your shoulder, then I look down lower to see some other Tattoos, I trace my finger over a Gun and Blade crossed over and surrounded by a Yin and Yang symbol.

I feel my wrist being grabbed and pulled down, I brace myself and wait to have something happen. I feel someone’s hot breath down my neck, I feel another warm body next to me. I open my eyes to see Niall inches away from my face, he had pinned me to the couch.

"You looking at my Tats, love?" He says, I can't even answer, I've never been this close to a guy before. I haven't even kissed a guy before.

He lays his forehead on mine and so that our foreheads and noses are touching, I feel his hands snake around my back, making me nervous.

"Um, Niall... I-I feel k-kind of awkward.." I stuttered, he lightly laughs at my words. I feel his hands slowly go down to my bum, I flinch at feeling.

I close my eyes scared of what would happen next, I feel his hot breath on my neck as he kisses the left side of my neck. He's teeth graze my skin making my breathe hitch in my throat, I feel him chuckling against my neck, I feel him continue to suck on my neck. He finally pulls away and puts his mouth to my ear.

"You're mine now, no one but me can have you." He says, he pulls his head away and gets off my body. What just happened? What did he do to me? I get up and rub my neck as I walk over to the kitchen where Niall was standing, I couldn't help but stare at his body, perfect biceps and triceps.

"I know, my body is good isn't it?" He says realizing that I was checking him out.

I hear Liam open the door from Niall's room and walk over to the kitchen counter where I was.

"Cinder, what happened to your neck?" He asks, confusion filling his face. I run to the bathroom to see my neck, I get in there and look at the pinky purple bruise forming on my neck.

"It suits you babe." I hear Niall say, I look in the mirror to see him standing in the doorway. I turn to face him, anger filling my body.

"WHY DID YOU DO THAT TO ME?!" I yell at him confused, he just chuckles and looks at me.

"Because, I want people to know you're mine." He says snaking his arms around my body.

"No!" I slap his arms away.

"You gave me this against my will, you pinned me to the couch and gave me a 'love bite' when I'm not even dating you!" I say, my voice getting louder with each word.

I feel him pick me up and threw me over his shoulder, I start screaming and hitting he's tattooed back trying to make him let me go. I hear footsteps running into the bedroom, I look up to see 4 boys face's.

"Niall, mate. What are you doing to-" Louis cuts himself off, I think he's staring at my neck.

"Niall, put her down." Liam says, I feel him slowly put me on the bed as I curl up so as he can't hurt me. I was scared, my stomach hurt from him picking me up, I still have really bad scars on there and my sides that still hurt when you knock them too hard.

I close my eyes and hope no one touches me or comes near me, I feel someone sit next to me. I open my eyes to see Zayn sitting next to me, I look into his dark eyes.

"Cinder, are you okay?" He asks putting his hand on my back to comfort me.

"I-I'm fine. J-Just a little shook up." I stutter, he looks me right in the eye and knows something's not right.

"Cinder, tell me, please?" He says, I duck my head down and wait till all the other boys have gone out of the room with Niall and Liam and I explain to Zayn about my scars.

"So, are they.. Um.. Self-harm?" He says trying not to set me off, I nod my head and he pulls me over for a hug, I flinch at the gesture at first but see it's okay.

"I won't tell anyone unless you say it's alright." He says with his chin on the top of my head as I curl up into his chest.

"I just want to keep this between us." I say, a tear running down my face.