Life, Love and Gangs. {Book 1} *In Editing*

Let's Do This Properly

As I walked out of Niall's room with Harry I couldn't help but think over what had happened in the bathroom, I though I had a deal with him.

I wasn't thinking it was Harry though, I was thinking of Niall.. Snap out of it! I start hitting my head trying to clear my head, in the results I just got a headache.

I look at Louis sprawled out across the couch with a girl resting on top of his chest, she was gorgeous, long brown hair and nicely tanned skin. Her nails where either a black or a very dark purple, either way they looked really nice.

I walk over to the kitchen to find Zayn standing there with Perrie covering him with kisses, I found it quiet cute.

"Um.. Sorry to interrupt the love fest but could I borrow Zayn for a moment?" I say leaning on the kitchen bench, I watch as their attention snaps to me while their cheeks turn red with embarrassment.

"Um.. Sure." Zayn says walking towards me, I grab Zayn by the arm and take him outside the flat.

"Harry.. Um.. He um.. He saw my.. scars.. And he kissed me.. for the second time." I mumble as I look at the carpet floor.

"W-What? Did you just say that... You and Harry.. Kissed?? For the second time??" He asks his voice starting to turn to yelling whispers, I nod my head, just about ready to cry.

"You know Harry isn't gonna let you go now right? Once he wants something, he won't stop till he gets it.." He says, I feel tears running down my cheeks as I hold my stomach tight, I couldn't handle this.. I'm too upset at the day to do anything.

"Look, don't cry, that's the last thing you wanna do. What did you think when you and Harry kissed the first and second time? Did it feel good or bad?" He asks pulling me in for a hug.

"The f-first time I h-hated it. The second t-time.. It felt like I was k-kissing Niall.." I trail off, Zayn freezes for a moment and pulls away to look at me.

"Did you just say it felt like Niall kissing you?" He asks, I nod my head as he pulls me closer.

"I have an idea. Lets go back inside." He says taking me inside with him, I still felt tears on my cheeks, the rest had dried up. I walk over to the couch with him and we sit, I hear footsteps come closer to us.

"Cinder? What's wrong?" I hear someone say, still unsure who until I hear Zayn hiss at them.

"Back off Harry! Don't touch her!" I hadn't heard Zayn like that before, he seemed too soft to say something like that.

"Don't worry." I hear Zayn whisper in my ear, he made me feel better.

"I'm gonna leave you to sit here for a bit, okay?" I hear him ask softy, I nod in reply as I feel him give me a tight squeeze and get off the couch, I wipe away any of my remaining tears from my face.

I can't see clearly yet though as my view was still a little blurry from my tears, I look around the room then pull my knees up to my chest and sit my chin on my knee caps.

"Love, you okay?" I hear an Irish accent say softly, I could tell who it was straight away by their voice. I look to my side to see Niall sitting next to me on the couch, I scoot over closer to him as he puts his arm around me.

"Hmmhmm.. I'm all right, just a little shook up.. That's all." I say laying my head on his chest, I think I do like Niall. I'm not sure though, my thoughts are everywhere thanks to Harry.

"Hey Niall, could you do something for me?" I whisper to him, he looks at me for a moment before replying.

"Of course, what do you need?" He asks curiously, I stand up and walk him over to the bedroom, leading him with my hand. We enter the room and I walk back over to the door and look outside before I close it and lock it, I turn my head to look at Niall.

"So what am I doing?" He says, I walk over to him and stand right in front of him. Our foreheads touching, I stare at him for a moment before answering his question.

"Me." I say biting my lip, I watch as his eye's widen at what I had said.

"A-are you sure?" He stutters, I nod my head and turn to walk towards the bedroom door, I take a few steps before turning around and facing him again.

"You wanna take me up on my offer or am I gonna be walking out that bedroom door?" I say flirtatiously, Niall's eye's getting wider and wider by each word.

"Cinder, come here a second." He says looking at the floor, I walk over. No control of my body and my head, I get to be standing in front of him. We looked up and down each others bodies.

"If you wanna do this.. Lets do this properly." He says smirking, what have I got myself into! Next thing I know I'm up against a wall, my hands up above my head.

I felt Niall's lips smash into mine, his tongue slips into my mouth making me shiver at his action.

He let go of my hands as he starts to leave wet kisses down my neck, I slip my arms around his neck and my hands fisting his hair.

We are doing the same thing we did last night, only difference was that we where up against a wall instead of on a bed.

I felt his hand go around the waist line of my underwear, I don't even know what I'm thinking!? Why am I doing this?! And why with Niall?!?!

I let out a moan or two as he grazes his teeth against my neck, I could feel the pressure on the skin of my neck. It hurt but felt soo good at the same time, I wrapped my legs around his waist as he grabbed hold of my thighs.

I felt him walk over to the bed and drop me on my back, letting myself spread out on the bed and then pull myself in.

I felt presser on my wrists, pinning them down on the spot, I had shivers running through my body. I couldn't help but feel like I was in heaven, I felt Niall start to go down my body, passing my torso and going down to my ankles, grabbing them and pulling me forward by them. I sat almost at the edge of the bed, waiting for Niall's next move.

I pull my head up to see Niall taking off his singlet and throwing it on the ground, I felt my heart race looking at his chest. Parts of it tattooed with my designs, it suited him perfectly.

He walked back over to the bed and leaned over me pressing his lips to mine as he fiddled with the top button on my jeans and inching them down my legs, I remembered my scars on my legs. Shit!

I just have to make sure he doesn't look at my legs.. Or my sides.. Or my entire torso... Oh god help me!