Life, Love and Gangs. {Book 1} *In Editing*

Voice Mail

"W-What?! What do you mean he's in a coma?! I need him! No!" I cried out, I couldn't live without him. I miss him already, I kept thinking about what happened.

"Cinder don't be upset." Sniper says hugging me tight, this all has to be a nightmare, one huge nightmare. This couldn't have happened to me, not to him, not now.

I got up out of Snipers grasp and walked into my bathroom, I looked at myself in the mirror. I couldn't help but point out all the flaws in my face and my body, I couldn't take the voices in my head, they buzzed around saying things like; You're useless, you're unloved, nobody wants you, not even your own mother.

I couldn't stand it, I brought my fist up and hit the mirror as strong as I could. I closed my eyes as I heard the glass break and pain cover my hand, I opened my eyes to see the blood running down my hand. Shards of glass still laid on my fist.

"Cinder are you ok-" My father cut himself off as he saw the mess I had made.

"Oh honey." He said walking over to me and clearing some shards out of my hand and hugging me, I felt sick as the blood still trickled down my wrist.

"I just want to go to bed.." I whisper, I didn't want to do anything. The love of my life is in a coma and could never come back. I walked away and cleaned my hand and wrapped it before going and sleeping, I might not be able to see him or speak to him ever again..

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2 Months later

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It's been two months and I have been lying in bed, I have barely eaten and the only time I've gotten out of bed is to pee. I felt like shit, there was no meaning to my life anymore. Sniper got a call from the doctor a few days ago saying that Niall might not make it, I felt like I was going to kill myself.

"Cinna?" I heard Swifty say as he peaked his head around the door, I turned over to see his face. He was holding Chocolates and some sweets with pancakes.

"Hi." I whisper, he walked over and sat on my bed next to me.

"Here, something to cheer you up." He says handing me the stuff, I smile weakly at him.

"You can't lay in bed all day, you know that.. Right?"

"I have nothing Swifty, I can't live without Niall, he's my everything!" I yelled, I felt horrible for yelling at him, he never did anything to hurt me.

"I-I'm sorry." I whisper before hugging him tight, the tears fell down my face as I remember where Niall is.

"I need to go to work, I'm sorry I can't help you. I'll drop by and see you later," He says kissing my forehead, "And take a shower girl!" He said causing me to laugh, I waved to him as he left my bedroom.

I got up and went to my bathroom, I peeled off my clothes and got in the shower. I remembered that the boys had tried contacting me, I decided that I'd go and see them today.

I got out of the shower and slipped my red skinny jeans and a black singlet with my hair out and a grey beanie on top, I fixed my make-up and grabbed my jacket. I picked up my phone and walked down stairs; no one was around down stairs so I grabbed my bag and walked into town.

I went through my contacts in my phone and called Zayn, he might be able to help cheer me up.

"Hello?" I heard Zayn through the speaker.

"Hey Zayn, can you catch up today? I need to keep out of the house." I said, I heard a beeping sound in the background.

"Um... Yeah sure, can you meet me at the hospital?" He asked, his voice a bit shaky as he asked. I knew where he was, he was in Niall room at the hospital.

"Sure.. Can we not stay there too long though?" I ask as my tears threatened to fall.

"Sure, I'll see you soon." He said before hanging up, I started to run towards the hospital, taking all the shortcuts I knew.

I arrived at the doors to the hospital and walked through to the receptionist.

"Hi, I'm looking for Niall Horan's room?" I ask the kind old lady behind the counter, she smiled and looked him up in her computer.

"Yes, he's in room 425, straight down the hall and take a left." I thanked her for the information and took her directions.

"421.. 423.. Ah, 425." I looked at the door, I didn't want to enter. I was terrified of what I'll see. I didn't want to see Niall helplessly lying in bed, that's the last thing I want to see. I grab a tight grip of the door knob and slowly turn it, I pushed through to see the one thing I had been dreading to see.

"Niall." I whispered quietly, I walked in to see Zayn beside him in a chair. He immediately stood as he saw me, he came over to me and hugged me.

"I'll leave you two alone for a moment." He said before kissing my forehead and walking out the door, I walked over to the chair Zayn was previously sitting in. I looked at Niall's limp body, the beeping from the heart monitor was steady, I didn't like the noise though.

I grabbed Niall's right hand and held it between mine, he has small cuts from the glass on his knuckles, I kissed each one of his knuckles like what my brother used to do when I hurt my hand.

"Niall, if you can hear me.. I miss you, so, so much. I can't live without you, I've spend 2 months in my room in bed. You mean the world to me, I want you back. There is nothing left for me, you are my everything and without you.. I'm nothing.." By the end of my little speech my voice was too wobbly to speak, I started to cry into the soft material of the hospital bed. I looked at the heart monitor to see his heart literally skipped a beat, I looked at Niall and started to talk to him again.

"Niall, I know you can hear me. Please, come back.. I miss you too much, I want you, I need you." I heard the beeping getting closer together, his pulse was speeding up.

After a few seconds of really fast beating I heard a noise I wish didn't exist.

He flat lined.

I heard the long noise of the beep, indicating that he was gone. I balled out crying, Niall's hand still in mine. I felt a hand leaning on my shoulder, I knew it was Zayn, coming to take me away.

"No, I can't leave. I can't." I said through my tears.

"I didn't want you to." I heard a thick accent say, I lifted my head to see something that shocked me.

"Niall!" I Shouted and jumped into his arms, I hugged him tight as I cried.

"Shuu baby, shuu." He said rubbing my back trying to calm me down, I heard footsteps run into the room, more than one person.

"Niall!" I heard four people yell in sync, I knew who they were, the boys.

"Okay, okay, I know you're all happy to see me but I still am sore." Niall said, everyone but me backed off. I laid on him hugging his waist tighty.

"I missed you all." Niall said still gently rubbing my back.

"I missed you." I whispered into his chest.

"I know you did, I missed you most." He whispered back.

"Well, we better get going. We'll meet you outside Cinder." Zayn said as the boys left the room leaving me and Niall alone.

"Um, Niall.. I thought you died.. I heard you flat line.." I said almost breaking into tears again.

"You talking to me brought me out of the coma, I followed your voice. When I came to I took off the heart monitor thing and I didn't realize it would say I was flat lining, That's when I put my hand on your shoulder." He said rocking me back and forth in his arms, I felt safe again.

I watched as Niall picked up my hand that I had smashed into the mirror two months ago and kiss my knuckles where each of the cuts laid, just like I did to him.

"I better go and let you rest, when do you think you will be out?" I ask getting off the bed.

"Probably tomorrow, I can't stand not seeing you though." He said as I grabbed my bag.

"Aw, babe. Look, whenever you want to talk just call me. And also look at some of your messages and voice mails, I think you'll like them." I said before kissing him and leaving.

Niall's POV***

I felt amazing kissing Cinder again, I missed her touch, her kisses, her beautiful eyes, I missed her. I picked up my phone and turned it on to see I had over 50 text messages and 20 voice mails, I started reading some of the texts.

'Hi babe, I miss you. Hope I hear from you soon. xx C'

'Baby I miss you, I want you back. Love you xx C'

'Baby I hope I can talk to you soon, I keep dreaming about you, Love you xx C'

I remembered talking to her in my dreams while in a coma, I told her 'not to give up, and even if I don't come back. I'll always love you.' I would never forget thoughs words. I continued to go through the messages and then went through the voice messages, I came across a few that kind of got me by surprise.

'Hey Niall, this is Greg. You must be busy at the moment but get back to me as soon as you can, talk to you soon little buddy.'

SHIT! GREG! I forgot that I was meant to catch up over a month ago, he must have been told what happened.. Mustn't he?

Then I came across one that I didn't expect either.

'Hi Niall, it's Pyro. I know you might not ever hear this but.. Lottie is almost ready to have the baby, she's about 3 months off and.. We wanted you and Cinder to be the main two god parents from my side.. You're going to be a god father.'

I felt my heart stop, I checked the date to see that it was the same day that I was put in hospital. Lottie would be close to being in labor soon.. Wow, god-father. I decided that after I listened to a few most messages I'd call Pyro and accept his offer and see how Lottie is.

'Hi Niall, it's Cinder.' Her tone wasn't what I was expecting it to be.

'I-I want to talk to you about something when you're better, that's.. if you get better. Just remind me when you listen to this, I know you might never but.. If you are listening to this call me.'

I stopped everything and called Cinder, I needed to know what this was about. I quickly dialled her number and waiting for her to answer.

"Hey babe, what's up?" Her voice was cheery.

"Hey sweetheart, um.. I was going tthrough the voice messages and you said that you needed to tell me something, what was it?" I asked, the line went silent for a moment before she answered.

"I need to tell you in person, I'll tell you tomorrow. And I also have a surprise for you when you get home tomorrow." She said seductively, her voice was like silk. I wanted her here, I wanted to be with her.

"Okay, I'll talk to you later, have fun sweetheart. Can't wait for my present tomorrow." I said in the same tone as her before hanging up. What did she want to tell me? I wanted to know deprerately, she sounded dissapointed when she said it in the voice message, what could she be hiding?