Life, Love and Gangs. {Book 1} *In Editing*

Secrets

Cinder's POV***

Today I was going to tell Niall, all my secrets I've hid, all my memories I haven't told, everything. I was terrified to tell Niall what he wanted to know, I was hoping he'd never know. But he'll eventually find out if I don't tell him, I had to.

I grabbed my bag and walked out the door, I walked to Swifty's car, he had agreed to drive me earlier.

The car ride gave me time to memorize my plan, I didn't want to do it but I had to. The car stopped, I realized that I had arrived.

I thanked Swift and walked into the building he had parked out the front of, I got in the elevator and walked to Niall's flat.

I opened the door softly, I tip toed in and walked to the kitchen. It's 7:30am and Niall was still in bed, I laid my bag down and walked quietly to Niall's room and close the door.

I looked in the kitchen to see it was A maculate. I pulled out a bowl and some ingredients, flour, egg and milk went in.

I mixed it to make the pancake batter, I also grabbed out some bacon from his fridge and turned on the oven. I laid the bacon on a baking tray and chucked it in the oven, I couldn't cook it in the pan for two reasons, 1 for some reason I can't stand the smell, yet I love bacon and 2 it would wake up Niall in seconds.

After I had cooked everything it was 8:00am, I put everything on the coffee table in front of the couch so you could watch the tv. I grabbed my bag and put it at Niall's door, I pulled out a present and put it on the edge on his bed as I entered the room.

I lightly walked over to the bed, he looked perfect. I looked to see he was just in his boxers, I carefully pulled the covers back far enough for me to slip in.

I got close to him, laying my forehead against his. I felt his strong arms stretch before he settled them around me, he was still sleeping and it was adorable.

He pulled me closer, he's warmth engulfed me. I felt his hot breathe on my neck, I carefully wrapped my arms around his neck.

"Morning babe." I whispered kissing him on the nose.

"What are you doing here so early?" His husky morning voice made me shiver, a smirk appeared on his face as he opens one eye.

"You where awake the whole time?" I question, he smiled and kissed me.

"Only for the last five minutes." He said as his soft lips touched my neck, I wanted to make out with him right there and now but I had to get him to eat breakfast before it got cold.

"Come on, get up then." I say pulling him up, he looked at the gift on the bed.

"This for me?" He questioned, I nodded and he proceeded to open it. He pulled out a silver clover necklace, it was handmade in Ireland.

"Wow.. Cinder you shouldn't of, its beautiful.. just like you." He said kissing me.

I smiled and dragged him to the lounge room, he rushed to the coffee table and started eating.

"Babe you're the best. Here, have some." He told me holding some pancake on his fork, I opened my mouth and he put it in my mouth.

They tasted really nice too.

We sat there watching TV and eating, I felt so happy. I missed this while he was away, anothing thing I missed was the next part of my plan.

"Niall?"

"Yes?" He said kissing my temple.

"C'mere." I said getting up and pulling him by his shirt collar over the bedroom, he closed the door behind him as we entered the room. As it closed I pushed him against it and smashed my lips into his, I wrapped my arms around his neck as he moved his hands to my ass.

I jumped and wrapped my legs around his waist as he grabbed my thighs and supported my body, he walked over to the bed, not letting our lips disconnect. I was laid on the bed and he dragged me to the edge where my legs were just hanging off, he climbed on me and kissed up and down my neck.

I remembered that I had to tell him something before this happened.

"Niall?" I ask breathlessly.

"Hmhmm?" He mummbled against my neck, I slipped off the bed and stood in front of him. His grin destracted me for a moment, I started to take my clothes off. I stripped down to my underwear and bra.

Niall looked at my body in shock, I looked down myself to see all the recent scratches on my body. I looked at him in the eye, I felt a tear slowly run down my cheek. He rushed over to me and swiped it away, he put his forehead to mine.

"I'm sorry." I whispered, I felt his hot breath on my neck.

He moved back from me and started to take his clothes off, he pulled his shirt over his head, I couldn't help but stare at his amazing body. The tattoos covered at least 45% of his body, they looked amazing.

I took his pants off, he stood there in his boxers. He ran his fingers through his hair, he ducked his head. I watched a tear fall to the floor, I wrapped my arms around his waist and hugged him tight. I was so confused, why was he crying?

"I'm sorry." I heard him whisper in my ear.

He pulled away and I noticed what he meant, around the edge of his boxers I saw a few scratches. I went on my knees to see closer there where lots of deep scars around the area, from the bottom of the boxer leg to about an inch down. I lifted the soft material to find even more, I looked up further to find them all up his side but hidden by tattoos.

I ran my fingers from the top of his boxers up his side, I felt over the scars, the little bumps they left from the deepness of the wound.

I looked up to see Niall in tears, I wrapped my arms around his neck and kissed away the tears. I kissed him softly and the kiss got rough after a moment, I felt better, it felt amazing to actually be able to tell Niall one of my darkest secrets.

He pushed me on the bed again and began to un-do my bra and take my underwear off, I felt his kisses run down my body. I missed the feeling of being loved, he was my ecstacy, he was my everything.

I felt his lips come back up to meet mine, the feeling of his touch exicited me. He took his boxers off and continued to kiss my chest, I ran my fingers over the scars left on his thighs.

They made me feel safe, I could trust him, knowing he had suffered the pain I had.

I moved back on the bed and Niall clambered on me, I opened my legs and wrapped them round his waist. I felt his length on my skin, I bit Niall's lip causing him to be rough, just the way I liked him.

He entered me, it felt like my first time again. I missed this, I missed the sex, I missed his kisses, his hugs.

He continued to kiss my neck as he thrusted into me, I felt his moans against my neck as he kissed it. I couldn't help but giggle, he was amazing. His hands traveled around my body, running over my scars. He turned me on so much, I wanted to do this over and over.

I felt a throaty moan erupt from mine and Niall's mouth, I felt like I was on cloud nine.

He pulled out of me and laid next to me on the bed, he entwined our fingers and kissed my hand. I remembered that I had to tell him something else, I decided to tell him the biggest. The one I wanted to tell him incase he didn't make it through the coma.

I sat up and looked over at Niall, him sweating and panting. I felt the sweat from my forehead drip down to my nose and falling from the peak. I moved over to him and put myself under his arm, I cuddled close kissing his bare chest.

His lips formed a smirk at my actions, he was beautiful, amazing, stunning. Perfect. Mine.

"Niall, can I tell you something?" I asked, I was scared for his reaction of what I wanted to say.

"Sure." He said kissing my head.

"I-I'm.. I'm... uh.." I could barely speak.

"What? What is it sweetheart?" He asked sitting up on his elbows.

I couldn't keep it from him anymore, I had to tell him.

"Niall... I'm pregnant.."