Relapse (Luke Hemmings)

Chapter 15. Will I actually go?

~~~~Nicoles POV~~~~
I looked out my window to see it's still pitch black outside then at my phone to see it's 2am. Tomorrow, well today the band is gonna be playing 2 hours away from where Luke and I live. I don't actually know if I want to go to be honest. There's reasons behind it; one, most of his fans hate me. Two, I have completely mutilated my arms and thighs, I don't want him to see that. I slowly sit up grabbing my phone off the nightstand to check and see if Luke texted me any. Nothing. No calls, no messages, no voicemail. I wonder why. I laid my phone back on my nightstand and get out of bed completely. "Can't sleep, might as well go downstairs to occupy myself with the TV," I mutter to myself walking out of my room. I wrap my arms around myself when a cold chill goes down my spine. I hate being cold, but I hate being full too.
I make my way down the stairs and see the remote laying on the arm of the recliner. I slump down in the recliner grabbing the remote to turn the TV on. Luke and I don't have regular TV channels, we just have Netflix, which in my opinion it's better because there's no commercials and you cam finish a whole season in one day. "What to watch," I ponder as I scroll through the random movies on the screen. "I guess I could watch in your eyes again. I'm such a sucker for romantic dramas," I say rolling my eyes to myself. I press okay on the remote and confirm that I want to watch the movie.
While the movie was starting I quickly run upstairs to get my phone. I noticed there was a message on it. I quickly read the name and to my dissapointment it was Dottie, don't get me wrong she's my friend, I love her like a sister but I was really hoping it was Luke.
Dottie- Hey, you doing anything?
I read, I start my walk downstairs and slump down in my chair again.
Me- No. Why?
Dottie- Bc I wanted to come over.
Me- Oh, okay. Well I started a movie. Do you want me to pause it until you get here?
After I sent that I hear my front door open. It was Dottie with a huge grin on her face. "No, I'm already here," she says sitting in the recliner next to me. "Why were you sitting in the car outside my home?" I questioned her getting wide eyed. "Well, I was bored and couldn't sleep so I figured if you weren't awake I could pretend I'm a criminal looking for a place to stay with no intentions to hurt anyone," she explains to me proudly. "At 2 in the morning?! Why me?" I asked her still in shock. "I haven't seen you in a while and my phone wasn't sending or receiving messages for a while so it was kinda like, why not?" Dottie informs me, I notice her look down and back up at me, her smile completely gone and replaced with concern. "Dude what happened to your arms?" she asks me. I quickly grab a cover and wrap myself so you couldn't see anything but my head. "It's nothing," I cover up (An: this is inapropriat but lol puns.) attempting to get her to shrug it off. "That looks like you put your arm through a shredder and took it out before your skin could fall off," she tells me still looking at me with fear for me. "I, uh, well," I sigh giving in, "Luke hasn't texted me and I feel like he might've replaced me because I did something wrong," my voice cracked, tears started filling my eyes. "Honey, even I know he's not that type of guy and if I remotely even got the slightest hint he was cheating he wouldn't have a penis because he wouldn't deserve to be a guy," Dottie soothes me engulfing me in a hug.
"You know the best part?" I laugh still choking back tears, "his fans started coming at me calling me fake and telling me horrible horrible things. I mean the ducking hashtag trended for a couple hours, it's in 3rd now for most used hashtag," I explain to her before I started uncontrollably sobbing. "They're jealous that you have all the boys following you and that you're literally the definition of gorgeous," Dottie tries to convince me. After a while I stopped sobbing but tears still streamed down my face. "I'm honestly considering not going to the show that starts in," I pause to look at the time. 3:47am. "14 hours," I finish. "You have to go," Dottie protests. "What if everyone starts saying things to me?" I asked her wiping my tears away. Dottie flinched at the sight of my arm. "I'll go. I won tickets to the show," she offers, "plus Luke will know someone's saying something to you because he'll be looking at you and only you," she says matter-of-factly. "I could still not go, he wouldn't care if I went or not anyways," I say crossing my arms, not really paying attention to the second movie Dottie picked. "Yes he will," she defends, "honestly I know for a fucking fact he will be dissapointed and depressed that you didn't come. Out of everyone that will come, he's only hoping for one, and that one person is you," Dottie explains to me, she sounds a little angry yet sad at the same time. "You know," I sniff wiping away the rest of the tears that poured out of me, "every time I'm around you we always end up talking about the emotional stuff. You know what? It always seems to make me feel better because you actually talk sense into me," I laugh shrugging.
I see Dotties face light up after I said that, "so you're going," she questions mending her hands together infront of her mouth. I sigh and give her a smile, "yes," I answer. Dottie squeals and jumps up from her spot, "yay!" she shouts overexagerating the whole thing. I roll my eyes and laugh at her actions.
__10 and a half hours later__
"Does this look okay?" I asked Dottie. I don't want people to see my scars so I wore a long sleeved plain black-t with galaxy leggings completed with black and white vans. "Of course!" she gasps, "you literally look good in everything you wear," she complements me. "Thanks," I thanked her smiling. All of a sudden she gasps, "can I play with your hair? I always wanted to because it's just so long and pretty," she explains clapping her hands together. "Yeah, I guess. Do whatever you want really," I give her permission. She excitedly ran in my bathroom grabbing a brush, hairspray, bobby pins and hairbows. 10 minutes later Dottie tells me to go look in the mirror with a satisfied grin on her face. I do as instructed and look at what she's done with my hair. She put it up in a beautiful messy bun, I noticed she braded the hair on the side of my head and wrapped the braid around the base of the bun. "It's so pretty," I gasp smiling. "We're acting like we're going on a date," she laughs causing me to laugh. "I know," I managed to say in between laughs.
I take out my phone from my purse and see that it's 1:15pm. "I kinda wanna be in the front row, or somewhere in the front," I start off giving Dottie an awkward toothy grin. "Okay," she shrugs walking downstairs and stops infront of the door. I join her, we walk out to her car and drive off to the concert. It takes us an hour and 45 minutes to get there. "So we won't be last in line but we also won't be the top 60 either," I warn Dottie examining the line waiting to get in. "We'll still be seen, isn't this a stadium with chairs? We'll be close to the front," Dottie reassures me looking at the line. "Oh okay," I say unbuckling my seatbelt and grabbing my purse. Dottie and I step out of the car and start waiting in line. After a while more and more people showed up, I got a bunch of weird stares and glares from people.
We waited for about 3 hours before getting let in. Dottie was right, we did end up close to the front. We were sat in the second row closer to the right side of the stadium. After everyone was seated the opening band came out and introduced themselves. They played about 4 songs before leaving. After about 15 minutes they came on. The whole stadium was screaming, some were crying, others looked like they were trying really hard not to. When I saw them take position I noticed Luke's eyes wondering until they were in my direction a smile crept onto his face as we made eyecontact. I missed him.
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Didn't actually expect me to make a longer chapter now did ya? Whelp here you go, as always I hope you've enjoyed this book so far. Thank you all for reading. Amd sorry for the horrible pun brought into the chapter earlier, I couldn't help myself xD.
Also lets apprieciat the fact I wrote a chapter this long in less than an hour and a half. I actually think I did a pretty good job on this one.
Anyways thanks again for reading I'll update soon.