What my Wife Doesn't Know...

II.The Brutal Truth

Elena's P.O.V

"You know Mathew, I thought that this plan, this...whole thing would make me feel better. I thought that I would get a since of power or happiness from this, but unfortunately I dont. Looking at you today. Staring at your pitiful face, those eyes so brown and full of sadness and tiredness. God you must be going through hell in there huh?"

I figured that he was about to answer, but Tasha beat him to it, "stick to the plan Elena" 

I sighed shaking my head and pasting the room. I thought that it would be easy you know? Seeing as I was and still am angry at him, but seeing him like this...I didnt think it would be this hard. Dont get me wrong. I'm glad I went through with this plan. Shit, he deserves this, but I just feel bad you know? This isnt the first time that I had felt bad for him. 

*Flashback*

Mathew's lawyer had just called not too long ago, telling me to be on my way to the jail in which Mathew is being held in. I dont want to see him, he ought to be in jail for what he has done to me!

I sighed feeling frustrated, "Elena" Tasha spoke as she drove.
I'm currently in the passenger seat thinking about everything. I turned to look at her to let her know that she has my attention.

"You can do this okay" she reassured me. She knows how I still feel about Mathew, I mean, I've known him almost all of my life and loved him for half of it. I am angry with him, I really am but I dont know what it's gonna be like once I see him, I dont know if I still have feelings for him. I'm just really confused. 

we arrived at the penitentiary and Tasha said some encouraging words, "I'll be right out here waiting for you okay? Stick to the plan, you can do this"  she spoke as I nodded getting out and walking to the visiting room. 

I walked in spotting David sitting outside of the visiting room waiting for me, "Hey" he spoke.

I smiled, "are you ready?" He asked, I nodded as we walked in together. I spotted Mathew sitting at the grey table looking at me intensely. I hitch in my breathe taking in his features, he looks horrible, it looks like he's been through hell!

Stay focused Elena. You have to do this so he wont get any ideas. You can do this Elena, I pepped talked myself.

"Hi" Mathew spoke

David began to speak saying hi to Mathew, but I couldnt hear him, I couldnt hear anything he was saying, my main focus was on Mathew. 

"You decided to testify for me?" He asked.

I nodded, not trusting my voice.  I licked my dry lips reaching my hand out and touching his face gently, he leaned a little into my touch. I frowned, "what happened to you?" I asked almost in a whisper.

 "I-I got into a fight"

"ah, here it is" David spoke obviously not noticing our little exchange.

"So, I wrote down some notes for you Elena. I'm going to need you to tell the truth once they call you to the podium-"

"I'm sorry Elena. I'm so sorry that I'm putting you through this" he spoke cutting David off.

"Dont say that" I cant hear this, this is the very reason why I didnt want to come. Because I feel that I'll change my mind about this whole thing, which I am. I cant do this, I cant do this!