Cabin by the lake

Chapter 15

~Allison's POV~

"you what?" I hear Christian growl from behind me. I can't breath, that was the last thing I expected him to do

."She's pregnant" harry tells him and all eyes move to me, I wasn't the only one to see her but l was one of the only ones who she would talk to. I look at them and they are in shock, I don't think they even realize what harry said. I see Christian being held back by liam, zayn and Louis. Niall is trying to keep Brittany calm.

"I'm going to kill him!" Christian says through his teeth. I just keep my eyes on him and I cant help but feel bad about it. I should have been the one to tell Christian.

"At least I just found out and I am telling you!" harry fires at us. how did I know he would throw that in my face.

"Who knew?" Christian asked in shock. I would tell him and apologize if I couldn't even feel my mouth let alone speak from it.

"Allison" Sadie says starring me down from across the room. I almost forgot she was here even though she is in my line of vision. if I couldn't feel myself I would have thought I wasn't even here. I look back to Christian, he doesn't look mad anymore more like sadness and disappointment. Christian just shakes his head at me and leaves. I try to follow him but liam's arms catch me before I can. Oh god liam payne is holding me. If it were a different situation I would make a sick joke that only Courtney would find funny and she would find a way to make everything even more awkward.

"how could you keep this from me" I look at harry who is now only a foot away from me. I missed the whole part where he got out of the chair

. "I was protecting her! and if you weren't so stupid none of this would be happening! if the nurses would have justg listened to me and not let you see her-" I cut myself off as I realize what I just said, shit.

"what you're the one who- I cant even look at you!" harry says as the tears start to fall from his eyes. I don't watch where he goes but I hear the door slam. I just sit down to think and clam myself down. Christian left, Sadie is in her room with britt and kate talking.

"we are going to go." liam tells me

"you too!" I ask him.

"yeah we are leaving tomorrow since I can walk with crutches." he says smiling, his smile is so genuine and sweet. I just nod and try to smile but it fails. I am left alone in the living room. I turn all the lights off and go into my room. Great none of my friends are speaking to me. Harry is mad at me. Liam feels betrayed by me. Christian is disappointed. Niall, Louis, and Zayn cant believe I wouldn't tell anyone. I feel so alone. I put one of liams shirts he left in my dresser, on for bed. I decide its long enough for me to only wear underwear under it. I start to drift off after hours of trying to sleep.

*BOOM!*

the sound makes me jump from my bed.

*BOOM*

I hear it again, stupid thunder. I hate thunder! I start to cry as I stand in my room staring at my window. I cant help but think of Courtney. There hasn't been a thunder storm this bad since she was last here. I would always go to her and she would hold me and stroke my hair telling me it would be okay. If that didn't work she would bring me to the kitchen with her and make me hot milk with honey and she added a little herbal tea. I know she wouldn't tell me but I figured it out. then we would go back to her room and sit in the bed and she would either tell me a pointless story or try to sing to calm me down. eventually I would fall asleep as she continued to stroke my hair. Sometimes Brittany would be with me but she would usually sleep through it. Courtney was my mom, she was what picked me up when I was down, my rock. now she is broken and isn't here. What am I suppose to do? Everyone hates me and Courtney was the one to go to. I find myself standing staring at her door, I haven't been in here since she last was. I turn the door knob. the room is dark but I see the bed. I see a lump on one side of the bed.

"Courtney" I choke out through the tears. the bump moves and the light flashes on.

"Allison?" harry asks rubbing his eyes.

"im sorry ill go" I start to walk back.

"no whats wrong?" harry asks me. I turn around to see him now sitting up.

"do you care?" I ask him and I know I sound like a bitch but its a valid question.

"yeah" harry says patting the bed. I jump on it sitting next to him.

"I hate thunder and Courtney isn't here for me and everyone hates me" I tell him as I sob into my hands. he puts his arm around me

. "here ill get you something my mom use to make for me." he gets up and I notice he is only wearing boxers. He is really a beautiful man, his tattoos are almost transparent against his skin and his messy hair. he leaves my sight only to return minutes later.

"what is it?" I ask as he hands me a hot cup.

"milk honey and herbal tea" he tells me and I begin to cry again.

"what?" he asks scared.

"Courtney made this for me!" I cry out. he just hugs me. I eventually drink the milk and lay back in the bed.

"er umm.. if you want you can sleep in here with me" he tells me just as I was thinking of going back to my room. I nod and lay down all the way as I cover myself up. he reaches over to turn off the light. his arm automatically wraps around my waist. it almost feels weird but some how also natural. I know this is weird but its almost like Courtney is here but in him. Maybe they are perfect for each other.

"WHat the hell!" I am awaken by screaming, I look at the door and see liam in the doorway. he looks like he might cry.

"its not" I don't even finish. He leaves the house and I see Sadie shaking her head at us. I look at harry and he looks scared. I notice the dark circles around his eyes and the puffiness. Was he crying all night? I messed it all up and now everyone is hurt and crying.