Cabin by the lake

chapter 21

"I am sorry Courtney, I should have told you!" Allison yells to me as I storm into the house. I start to put some of the items we bought away.

"whatever" I mutter as I bend over to pick to pick up the bread from the floor.

"no! its not whatever!" she tells me forcing me to look at her. I immediately look away. It's not like this is how I imagined my first day coming home. I imagined coming home to all of my friends and being happy, instead I get in a fight with the only person who seemed to care enough about me to stick around.

"where did you meet?" I ask her as I attempt to pick up a package of water bottles.

"let me help" she says trying to lift it from my arms but instead of helping she drops it. "please sit down, I don't think this is good for your pregnancy."

I decide to take her advice and take a seat. I need to get use to being "normal", I've been weird my whole life but this is pushing it.

"ok so we met at school actually. I walked into the wrong class before it  was done and he was there. I stood infront of the class for like five minutes with everyone including the teacher staring at me like I was a freak. He then stood up and said "oh hey honey thanks for bringing me my book! love you!" he then came to the front of the class and hugged me "just go with it" he whispered. after that everyone stopped looking at me. he then asked for my number. that night he called me asking me to go out with him and I excepted. we have been dating for almost four months. We fell in love immediately, then his room mate kicked him out and I offered him a room since I have four empty ones." Allison just kept gushing over how perfect he was. I would usually be happy for her and listen but its hard when you are so miserable yourself. I want to ask her what happened after I left. If maybe he stuck around or if he left immediately. maybe he didn't even love me. its killing me to not know. my thoughts get interrupted by the sound of our front door creaking open.

"hey" brady says walking through the door with a unruly smile on his face. It's almost as creepy as thing one and thing two from cat in the hat!

"hey babe!" Allison runs to his side and hugs him. Its almost like she cant be away from him. I am not sure about him, but that might just be my lack of faith in men lately. I just glare at him as he goes into his room. "ill be right back" she says running after him. This is so weird Allison didn't even do that to Liam.

"she's psycho!" I hear Brady yell at Allison.

"no shes better now! im not going to throw her out shes pregnant!" she yells back but it almost sounds more afraid then not. I hear a loud clapping sound. when she walks out of the room I can see the red hand print marked on her cheek. She walks over to me crying and I hug her. I knew I didn't like him.

we sit on the couch with pop corn and watch the little mermaid. both of us could use some cheering up right now. Brady comes out right after the credits.

"im so sorry" he says to her with a sympathetic look on his face. I hope she doesn't fall for this pathetic shit!

"its ok" she says shyly and gets up letting him wrap his hands around her waist.

"what the hell!" I yell jumping from the couch.

"you're lucky I don't throw you out!" he snaps at me. I just laugh with my hands on my hips.

"have you forgotten something? let me remind you! this is my house I bought it if anyone gets thrown out of here it will be you!" I warn him.

he lifts his hand as a threat to slap me.

I just roll my eyes and start to walk to my room. "I'm going to bed" I say and then slam my door. I don't understand why shes with him.

The next morning I wake up and get showered before the devil wakes up. I really don't like him. I step out of the shower and look at myself in the mirror. I think I've grown since the last time I really looked. I get dressed and go to the kitchen. I find standing their is Brady.

"hey psycho!" he greats me with another creepy smile.

"hi devil!" I try to copy his tone. I look over to see Allison walking out of her bedroom with a huge smile.

"hey Courtney, hey baby" she says patting my belly.

"hey babe" brady chimes before I can great her.

"I was talking to the baby but hey!" she says laughing. I could tell he looked annoyed or embarrassed. Allison automatically tensed up when she noticed what I did. "im sorry I should have greeted you first" she says quickly.

"it's fine I have to go work" he growls and quickly leaves. The exchange I just witnessed makes me wonder if what happened last night happens often.

"Allison we need to talk" I tell her and she sighs.

"If its any more negative remarks about brady I don't want to hear it" she gets a cup of hot chocolate and starts to walk away.

"no its about harry!" I yell after her and she freezes.

"what about him" she says through her teeth.

"when and why did he leave?" I ask her and she just sighs and turns around.

"he left only a few weeks after you were put in the... place. It was to much for him, all of them. Now we shouldn't be talking about this its not healthy for you to dwell on the past." she says trying to comfort me.

"hes not my past he is my present and future to.. this is his baby too" I try to explain calmly.

"that is if he ever comes back" she says trying to walk away but I grab her arm..

"what is that suppose to mean?" I ask her with a stern voice.

"he doesn't care Courtney, if he did he would still be here." she says getting from my grip. I fall on the floor, ouch! I can almost feel my heart shattering even more.

"I thought we were talking about harry not liam!" I yell after her and I hear the door slam.

the tears start to fall and my breathing more rapid. Why does it hurt so much? I feel like I am dying. I should be use to this feeling but it gets harder everytime not easier, especially when its by the same person over and over again. The only thing keeping me from dying is this baby. She is the only reason I will continue to breath. She is a light in a world full of dark. If something happened to her I have no clue what I would do.i cant go through this world alone anymore. I need to know that someone will love me and never leave me. That's what people do though, eventually they all leave me and I am once again heart broken.