Twilight-New moon (If I had chosen Jacob)

Prologue

Edward had left me a few weeks ago, claiming he didn't want me or even love me.We were alone in the forest closest to my house and I could still remember the words he said, it felt like it was just yesterday and it hurt so much.

"People are starting to notice Carlisle is not aging and we have to live" he had said

"I need to come up with something" I prompted

"Me and my family" He had made it clear with an emphases

"by that you mean you, Carlisle and them" I said making sure I heard him wrong

"Yes" he said with no emotion whatsoever

"You don't want me--"I had started to say when he interrupted me with a big "No!"

And we had caressed but just for that moment before he left and I had followed him into the woods, ending up confused and lost in the silent forest only to be saved by Sam, one of Jacobs friends and that moment had me grieving for what seemed like forever.

It had even worried Charlie to the point of almost sending me back to Jacksonville where my mom Renee was, to start over there again but of course I refused. I had memories of me and Edward here and something within me told me he would come. Come back for me and I would wait patiently for that day as long as I could.

And this much I could withstand my friends were worried sick, Mike Newton had ask me to the movies along with Jacob Black, which turned out to be a disaster when Jake almost beat the crap out of poor Mike who got the flu.

I would still have to talk about that with Jake because he had been avoiding me, and Billy Black, Jake's father claimed he had been sick but I was having doubts so I would go see him today.

Jacob was a good distraction for my mind to keep Edward away, maybe I would forget him.

Jacob was a nice guy, my childhood friend and the only one who understood me.

I needed him desperately, more then ever