Hug me | Vkook

I'm so scared

Taehyung bluntly stared at the wooden table of their dining room, not showing any single reaction infront of Jimins words and rants. After he found out about his condition, he didn't know how to face Jungkook and tell him everything, on how would he explained everything when every word of the doctor sounded so painful. He couldn't take seing his partner cry in front of him again, so he decided to tell it to his bestfriend first.

Once he called him Jimin immediately went to Taehyungs house, and after knowing, he couldn't help but feel like crying. But he decided to be tough, "How did this happen to you!?" "Why?" "Why now?" "But...why you!?" "What are you gonna do now!?, oh God!!", and that's just it before he started crying, he didn't mean to be emotional in front of his bestfriend, he didn't mean to be weak. He wanted to be tough so that Taehyung would do the same too, but at this moment he didn't know, Taehyung didn't know how to fight anymore. "I don't know" was the only thing he said.

"You don't know?...you don't know!?!?" Jimin half shouted, but Taehyung didn't even took a single glance at him "Taehyung!!, you're dying!!!, and you still have a child and Jungkook!, they're depending on you!, they need you!, and you don't fucking know what to do!?" and with that, Jimin got mad and let his feelings out. It's a good thing that Jungkook and Taegeuk went to Jin, and he's free to scold and shout on Taehyung.

"I don't really know okay?, I don't know, I don't want to die, I don't want to leave them both" and he started crying, his heart beating faster and faster, even though he knows that this is bad for him, he couldn't stop. "Then why won't you do the surgery?" then Jimins voice softened, just by seing his bestfriend like this, he couldn't help his heart from crashing into pieces, Taehyung is like a brother to him.

"No"

"Why?"

"Because, what if after the surgery my heart won't beat as fast as every time I see Jungkook first thing in the morning?, what if my heart won't say the same thing every time I thought of how beautiful he is?, what if it won't beat the same way every time we're together?, what if I can't say I love you to him anymore?, what if it will slowly vanish?, what if it won't get tired even though I still want to, what if every time we kiss I'll feel nothing?, what if it won't beat the same way for him anymore?"

And Jimin was left speechless, he wanted to take all of Taehyungs thoughts, he didn't even know if that is possible, but first of all, he wanted to understand Taehyung, even though he can't, even though he wanted to help, he'll understand him, because never in Taehyungs life, no one understands him. And he wanted to be the first person who can.

"But you're strong, your love for Jungkook is strong, and I believe in you" and maybe, just maybe, for the last time Jimin thought. That this may convince the younger.

"I was never strong" at that moment, he wast left no choice.

"Then what else you should do?" he hesitantly asked, much to his dismay of agreeing, he wanted everything for his bestfriend.

"Im going to marry him" Taehyung answered, unexpectedly for Jimin.

"Before I die, I want to make him happy, I want to make him feel safe, I want him to feel loved. All those past that we shared, after hearing his story, past and everything, all that came into my mind is that I want to be that person who can change all of them, and that will only happen if we get married. I fought for him, because I saw the love that was worth fighting for, I loved him because I know he can too. I've waited for him, because I love him. And this, this heart disease won't stop me from loving him.

I don't want to fight by money, by things. I want to fight by love, and I know everyday If I can see him, call him by my name, I know it will slowly heal me. This love will heal me.

And if loving him until the last breath of my life, I'm okay... at least... I'm happy"

And Jimin came to hug Taehyung, at this moment Taehyung proved that he's strong, how he wished he can do everything to stop this, but he's not a person from above. And knowing that you can't do anything for your bestfriend, pains him even more.

"I understand, I support you on this"

And he felt Taehyung cried.

"I just don't want to lose him, them, I want to keep this love for him, I want to cherish this, this love will make me strong...a-and I'm so scared"

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Nan/N I'm emotional 😭