Adopted By Markiplier

Chapter 27: the truth

*TRIGGER WARNING*

Y/n thoughts

I was know for running away from problems, from drama, from life...

They told me to be strong but the truth is how can you be strong when people that are suppose to help you make you so weak.

They told me to let it go so I did... I let my past go, I let my present go, I let my future go. And know I'm sitting here on the same park bench I sat down on that dreadful night.

The screams, the lies, the thoughts, and feelings swarmed through out my body.

I was done hurting people! For God sakes I already hurt myself!

I use to say that I was stressed out that I needed a get away but the fact is cutting was my diseases. It was my aid for all my problems. Like most cutting was my pills I downed to make the problem seem minimal than it actually is. But like I said I let my past go. I don't do that stuff anymore.

I now realize that throwing my anger out into oblivion has help to relieve my stress. I could say I have survived... that I did it! but I have only numbed the wound that I keep cutting open. I wish I could believe in myself. I'm merely a coward that refuses to say I'm the one who made the mistake. I want to forget them but I know they love me. I just wish i could have treated them better. Now I sit her waiting for them to chase after me like a little kid waiting for some one to find then in hide in go seek.

I need to grow up! I need to move on...I'm not a little kid. Its time to let go... bye little kid that use to believe in everything. Hello future, realization and new beginning.