Niki lives the dream

"I love you, Justin"

As he was unzipping my dress, I finally realized what I was doing.

Oh my God.

Oh my God.

I pushed Mike away, totally shocked and frozen.

"What is it?" he asked, his mouth being really close to mine

"No..This is wrong..I shouldn't have started it..I'm sorry" I said as I got up, wearing my heels and stretching my dress.

"Niki..come on, you enjoyed it!"

"Yes I did but it is wrong. Don't you understand that the situation is complicated and..and we haven't met for 4 years and now I'm really feeling horrible" I said as tears were streaming down my face

"It's okay, it's okay..I understand you don't.."

My phone rang and Kelsea sounded really upset

"Where are you Niki?"

"Umm..Your room actually"

"My room? What are you doing with Mike at MY room?"

"Umm..Kelsea I'm so sorry I.."

"He saw you"

"W-what? Who saw me?"

"Justin"

I was done

"He saw..what?"

"You.With Mike.Making out in the backyard and then going into the house" she said the last words slowly

"Where is he?"

"He's gone.  He seemed brokenhearted. Niki you're an idiot.."

I closed the phone, tearing up. I was in a mess. My hair, my dress, my face. But my heart was dying. He had seen me. 

I ran down the stairs and left Kelsea's house.

Justin was walking to the direction of his car.

"JUSTIN!" I shouted, crying very much. Nothing would be normal again.

He stopped walking and I reached where he was standing. He was looking me in sorrow.

"Why did you do this to me" he said, while his eyes were getting wet.

"Justin.."

"I..I didn't deserve this. I know I hurt you and I lied but..I didn't deserve this revenge, Niki. You just killed me tonight" he told me, his words interrupted by his tears.

"Justin, I feel horrible, I wish I was dead" I couldn't see anything. I couldn't breathe. All I did was crying.

"You don't even know him. The way I saw him touching you.." he said closing his eyes, making his cheeks wet by the tears.

"And..you wanted this. You let him. You let him touch you like that. You let him kiss you like that. You encouraged him. You agreed to go to Kelsea's bedroom with him.

"Why?" he asked me, looking me right into the eyes

"I thought you loved me!" he continued

"I do. My love for you will never end." I answered 

"Why did you do this to me"

"Justin..I'm so sorry"

We were standing on a bridge now. A river was under it. The sky was clear, the stars were shining.

"You see these stars,Niki? They're millions" Justin said a bit more calm

"My love for you is more than these stars here." He said tearing up again

I sat on the ground, lying my head on my knees. I was crying and crying and crying. Could this ever end? What have I done? Why did I do it? Why?

"And I still wondering..why" he said, looking up in the sky

"Everything I do..is because I love you"

"You didn't seem you cared about me when you let him kiss you in front of everyone, holding your waist and making you his slave!" he said in anger

I didn't answer. He was right.

The next thought that crossed my mind would cost a lot.

I stood up and hugged him. He didn't reject the hug. He hugged me back, keeping me in his strong arms for more that a minute. We were crying at each other's shoulders.

"I love you Justin"

Then, I left him. I stood at the edge of the bridge and I let myself fall in the deep dark water.