Niki lives the dream

I screwed it up

As I slipped, the last thing I saw was Justin running to catch me.

I fell in the water within 10 seconds. It was extremely cold. I wasn't swimming. I was just happy. Because the last thing I had told him it was that I loved him. And I had hugged him. 

I was going deeper and deeper. I needed air. Air.Oxygen..

Then everything went blurry and I closed my eyes.

Long after that, I could breathe again. I was still in the river. Justin was beside me. He had saved me. 

"Why did you jump in' I asked him crying again

"Are you serious?" 

He carried me out of the water. My dress was useless. Teared up, wet, filled with mud.

"Justin..this would have end if you just let me. Everything would be done. I wouldn't hurt you ever again" I said crying

"When you fell of that bridge..I thought I lost you forever. Forever." he said, tearing up, sitting on the ground covering his face with his hands

"It would be better, trust me"

"No. By ending your life you're automatically ending mine"

"I just feel so weak"

"Why every single thing in my life turns into a fucked up world? Why?"

" I wish I knew"

"I feel so suicidal" I whispered

"I feel lost" he said

"I JUST WANT TO HAVE A HAPPY LIFE." I screamed

"I screwed up. But all I did I did it because I was hurt. I actioned without thinking before. It was stupid"

"Yes. But still. We hurt each other. We deserve the worst."

"I hate myself.I shouldn't have hurt you. I shouldn't have let you go. You were mine." I cried

"Just try to stay alive"

"Will I ever be your princess again? Will you ever love me like before?" I asked 

"I never stopped loving you. I said it before. You own my heart Niki"

"I feel like the world's gonna end. Justin. I'm so hurt" I was tired, sleepy and heartbroken

He stood up and carried me to his car and drived me at his home. Justin wasn't a mean person. He still loved me. Although all this hurt I had given him that night.