Remember Me, Paradise (Completed)

XXVII: Heartbreak

What makes you dull. What makes you weak. What makes you lifeless.. Is having no one to love truly. The emphasis of a classic heartbreak...

XXVII: Heartbreak

I dreamt of Dice last night. She was caressing my hair. She made love to me endlessly. It almost felt like the world was a better place with her by my side. She was happy and contented. She was not hurt anymore. And all the scars she had for the past years had gone to a better place.

I opened my eyes to the bright lights of another beautiful morning. I instantly remembered how I made love to Dice last night and honestly the best moment of my life. I have never been more happy. I have never been more in loved. I looked around Dice's room. She was not there. I put my clothes on and got up. I walked out the room and looked for Dice everywhere. She was not in any room of the house. Where is she? Did she run away again? Did she not mean all the things that had happen last night? I looked everywhere again bit still nothing. I went out the house and search for her outside.

"Dice!", I called out like a father looking for his lost child.

"Dice!", I called out again.

I walked alongside the beach view. Dice is nowhere. Now I'm really worried sick. Maybe she had left already and regretted the magical evening we shared. Shit. I was getting desperate looking for her so I sat on the sand and brushed my hair sighing. I am worried. I don't want to end things like this. I loved her. Fuck. I stared at the wonderful view in front of me with the hope she'll be back soon.

"What's with thinking so hard?", suddenly Dice appeared out of nowhere. I frantically stood up and hugged her not minding what she'll think. I felt her smile and returned the tight hug I gave her.

"You know all of these Rolf is wrong right?", Dice said softly.

"I don't care Dice.. I don't care. I can't pretend anymore that I don't love you for the longest time", I responded still hugging her tight. Honestly I can tell her everything right now.

"I'm scared Rolf", she said letting me go.

"Of what? For showing how you really felt for me? Of Luke? Dice I can be the safest place you can run to. I can be the man who can be with you when you finally tell him the truth", I said holding her shoulders. She did not speak up but I can see confusion running in her face.

"Do you honestly love him Dice?", I finally asked her.

"I don't know..", she said bowing her head down.

"Hey..", I lift her chin and meet me in the eye.

"I know all of this is a hell of a ride. But Dice if only you could remember me, I am the person you wanted me to be right now.. And I can be the person you wanted me to be for the years to come.. Please..don't give this up even if it almost feel like the worst thing to do", I caressed her cheeks interlocking my gaze at her.

"I'm cheating on Luke Rolf..", she said to the heart and there is no way to deny it.

"But why does it felt like the most rightful thing to do?", she said shedding a tear again. I did not spoke. I can see sincerity in her eyes even though she was confused.

"Help me remember you Rolf.. Help me to remember why all this time I cannot erase you in my head..", she pleaded. I did not hold myself from kissing her again. She did not resist. She hugged me tight and it felt right.