Remember Me, Paradise (Completed)

XXVIII: Love

What makes you shine. What makes you strong. What makes you not give up easily.. Is when you know you a have found the one you truly care for.. The classic emphasis of love..

XXVIII: Love
(Dice's POV)

I missed Rolf. It has been two days since I left him looking frustrated in the beach house. I was stucked here in the house with Luke who is still mad at me and not talking to me like forever. I can't blame him though. I cheated on him and that's a disgrace. I cried out last night calling Erin thru the phone sounding like a child. She was worried and so was dad. She said they will fix something in NY and then they'll go home right away and fix everything.

Meanwhile, my mind is going nuts and confused at the same time. I knew I loved Luke when I said yes to him when he proposed to me but why do I have these feelings for Rolf when I knew for sure he was just a friend in the past and a total stranger of the present? And why do it feels like heaven the moment he laid his lips in mine?

I served dinner tonight. Luke was just silent and still looking furious at me. He was not the guy I used to know. He has changed. And I can feel he he hates me for what I did. I sat across him at the table. Everything is quiet. The silence between us was screaming in my ears.

"Luke?" I tried breaking the ice hindering us only to gain a silent look form Luke.

"Luke..I'm sorry..", I cannot hold it anymore inside me. The guilt I'm feeling is to the max that it pains me to see him dying inside. "I'm sorry..", I cried softly as I tried standing up and went near him. He dropped his spoon, stopped chewing his food, swallowed the lump on his throat and looked at me cold as an ice. I was shedding tears and I can't see nothing in his eyes. No emotions at all. He stood up in front of me keeping the dead stare he has.

"Did you.. Did you even loved me?", he asked silently bowing his head that it breaks my heart even more. I cannot seem to answer the question anymore. I can't even hide the obvious of how I think of Rolf more and more each day. But it killed me of how I am choosing Rolf now more than him in silence.

"Luke..I.."

"Did you..even loved me as your fiancee?", he asked again this time with a quaver in his voice.

"You know I did Luke..I did..", I said knowing it was the truth. That I have loved him before. Before I suddenly felt drawn to Rolf that I am confused of.

"Fuck it!", Luke slammed his hands in the table. Throwing everything in the air and in the walls. He screamed. He cursed and he cried. He brushed his hair that it becomes a mess just how he becomes of tonight.

"I'm really sorry Luke.. I never meant to hurt you..", I said sincerely. He came near me and held my arms tight into his hands that it hurts.

"Sorry? How can you chose him over me Dice? Hah?! How can you still choose the person who tried to steal everything from you?!! How?!!", he screamed at me loud and clear but I did not understand what he meant.

"What are you saying?"

"Oh yes yes. . I forgot you have that stupid amnesia! Damn it Dice! I loved you for all eternity! And yet even in your worst oblivious state, you'd still choose him over me? Fuck it Dice!", he was furious. He was mad.