TOXIC

Chapter 11

"I know its the last period of the day and you will soon have two days to do your teenage things. Listen to the last couple then class will be over" Mr Quinn explain. I doodle on the piece of paper again and slightly listen to what people were saying except when Stefan read his out. He talked about how he ran away and why he shouldn't have. It was great. Way better then mine. "I am very disappointed with you guys!" he yells. "There were only two people in the class that wrote something the least bit great. All you wrote about something impersonal. I wanted you to write something personal. Jordan and Stefan were the only ones that wrote something personal."

"But Jordan didn't even present" a girl says. 

"She handed hers in" he replies taking the piece of paper and holding it up,

"Why?"

"I was embarrassed" I reply. Everyone looked at me. 

"A snippet of what Jordan wrote: I wish I could take it back or change my response. Hopefully the second time around I wouldn't be called the girl who loved to easy. It was true what they said: I was the girl who loved to easy. My mom died when I was born and I never met my dad. I was put in my aunties home. She fostered teens. There was a guy that came in that made me feel special. And not completely worthless. I had friends but I still felt like I was lonely. This guy understood it, he showed me attention and I liked it. I had never received attention before.But he used me. I was raped. After that I moved to where I am there and I never spoke to him after. I tried to hide it for ages, or block it but until the pain was too severe that my brain shut it off to give me one sweet moment of blessed relief which could have only happened with Stefan. The hate was too strong.  And it happened again. I fall for it every time. No more. But I don't care. I am the girl who loved to easily" he reads. My face fills with tears. Stefan rubs my back. Everyone looks at me. I didn't know what they were thinking. Shock, surprise, sympathy or disgust. 

The bell rings and I was finally let out of class. I wipe the tears from my face and walk out. A couple of people had already heard my story. Some people looked at me while others 'accidentally' push into me. Those people seemed to be apart of Joey's group- the jocks and there friends. 

I wipe my dress before I walk down the green grassed paddock. I look through the aisles and try and find Stefan but I end up seeing Joey and Harry as well. Harry had his tight suit that showed his muscles and a smirk on his face as one piece of his hair dangled down in the middle of his forehead. 

I sit down and look at my sister as she delivers her vows. The whole time I try to focus on them but my mind keeps circling back to the two boys who had taken advantage of me.  

After the ceremony I stand up and walk off. Someone grabs my arm. It was Harry. His smirk fills his face. I try pulling my arm back but he has a tight grip on it. "Let's talk" he says. I nod and walk with him. We walk behind the barn and talk there. "Why did you leave me babe. I missed those curves of yours" he says sliding his hand down the side of stomach to my thigh. 

"Don't pretend you care" I say looking him in the eye.

"I do babe." he says touching my cheek. I grab his hand and drop it until it swings back to him.

"Your not even worth the calories I burn talking to you" I say.

"I heard your speech today. Very...Moving. You know our love never dies. It lives on and on."

"It stopped feeling like love when you raped me. I loved you through everything and you don't even care" I explain. He nods his head and moves around to my back. 

He whispers in my ear " Come on you loved it. A women never forgets their first love no matter how badly it ended- I learnt that from The Vampire Diaries. And I remember you loved it especially when I kissed you like this" he pulls up my hair and kisses my neck, he plants a kiss then plants another one further down my neck.