Memories (Killua x Reader)

Chapter 10

Killua's POV

"I know who I am."

My eyes widened.

"Isn't that good? Why are you crying?" I asked.

"Because.. You won't like who I am." She sniffled in between the sentence.

"(Y/n)-"

"You won't Killua, I'm a bad person."

"Well, I'm not necessarily good either.."

This seemed to calm her down. Her head lifted away from my chest.

She looked down at her hands, and fidgeted her fingers, almost as if she was hesitating about her future actions.

She turned around, facing away from
me, allowing me to look at her back. She lifted her hair, mocking the movements someone does when they put their hair in a ponytail.

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I starred, and I starred.
Words being unable to form.
Missing puzzle pieces coming together.
Emotions rattling.

"Say something Killua. Please."

I didn't pay much to her words. My hand lifted from my lap and made its way to her neck. I slowly traced the tatted image with my finger, rubbing it as well.

Without a doubt, it wasn't fake.

She shivered at my touch, turning around to face me quickly.

"Well?"

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I took a deep breath, a small smile forming.

"I still like you."

(Y/n)'s eyes lit up, her worried and depressed expression turning into a relieved one.

"Thank you.."

"What about Gon and Kurapika?" She asked.

"You should probably cover that up, and not wear a back-revealing shirt for now ."

She nodded her head.

"Ive probably killed hundreds of people, and what sucks about all of this is that I don't even remember it. It kills me not knowing what my criminal hands have done."

"It's best if you don't know. Identifying yourself as a killer, a bad person, isn't anything you want to experience." I stated calmly, starring at the ceiling.

I felt her soft gaze on me. Such a confused gaze, concerned gaze, such a calming gaze.

"They'll probably hate me right ?"

"Gon, most likely not. Kurapika, probably."

I felt her flinch at my blunt comment.

"I should probably leave right?"

I fixed my sight on her. Starring into her. (e/c) orbs.

Soon looking away.

"Where would you go?" I ask.

"Far away, not involving you guys in this rush anymore."

I looked at her once more.

"What if... I wanted to be involved in it?"

Her cheeks got red. I slowly leaned in closer to her face. She did the same.

Inches- no centimeters away from each other's faces, we paused. Hearing a clicking sound.

Gon.

"I gotta go change!" She pushes my chest, making me fall back on the couch on my back.

She grabs her clothing and locks herself in the bathroom.

"How can someone like her be bad?"

DOUBLE CHAPTER UPDATE BECAUSE TODAYS A SPECIAL DAY! HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY SUGAR DADDY! I LOVE YOU KURAPAPI!! I'm finna get some kuradick (; If y'all know what that means. I'll stop I'll stop. But these chapters were shitty but let's just enjoy them for Kurapika.