Hard life

Sorry

I'm really, really sorry for not updating... It's just that I never really got the time for it. But... If you really are worried about me and care about me and want to know how im doing then please keep reading. I can't even remember the last time I published something on Wattpad. I just felt the need to update this story. Me and Janelle are not friends anymore because I decided that I've had enough fighting, and one day it had to stop. Some of you know, earlier in the year my two best friends Janelle and Jakob were fighting. They said some pretty nasty stuff to each other but Janelle got really defensive and said things a lot worse to what Jakob had been saying than her. She said stuff like "My mom gave me the permission to beat you up, and I will if I want to." And "I would punch you right now if I was in front of you." (Thats what she texted.) but luckily when they were at school I was there to stop them from fighting. I eventually stop being friends with Janelle and she didn't take it very well but over time she learned to get over it. Since then she's been more... Well "gothic", and she's not like her usual self. She's depressed, sleep deprived, and wants to cut again (from what I read from her books.) She's not like her regular joyful and silly self. I find this kind of funny because she said that "I changed." But I told her "No, I grew up. You should try it sometime." She later realized that I was right and she apologized and I excepted her apology. But anyway, I feel like without me Janelle is falling apart, and I'm not there to keep her happy. It's like I'm the momma bird and I let the baby bird leave the nest to soon... Deep, deep down inside of me I still really miss her... I'd love to help her, and she said she'd take me back anytime, but... Jake would get really mad at me if I became friends with her again and they would just keep fighting again... Besides it's time I start worrying about my self instead of others. Speaking of fighting Janelle got an Instagram account a couple months ago and so did Jakob. After a couple weeks of Jakob having Instagram (which is encase if your wondering, like one in a half months after Janelle got Instagram) Janelle posted a video... This is exactly what I remember her saying in the video: "Jakob your pathetic. Your also a scaredy cat. You're insulting me behind a phone screen, and if your so tough then why don't you just say it to my face?" It was a perfect example of cyber bullying I kept on replaying those words in my head, "pathetic" "scaredy cat" over and over again in my head. I knew I could never forgive Janelle for this. Who knows what those words could've made Jakob do. I immediately commented "What did Jakob do to make you say such horrible words?" She dm me saying "I apologize but Jakob was commenting mean things on my photos and I asked him to stop several times." She sent me pictures of it. At first I was a little mad at Jakob for doing this, but when Janelle sent me the pictures I realized that Jakob wasn't even insulting her. He was just leaving comments on her photos. But I slowly realized that Janelle started to overeact and yell at Jakob. Jakob fought back. After I had the argument with Janelle I immediately texted Jakob hoping he was still alive and hadn't already commit suicide or something. He wasn't dead thank god, but he thought of committing suicide once. I dont even know why Janelle would do this, Janelle said that Jakob was "bullying her" but like I said before he wasnt really saying anything offensive. He didn't spread any rumors about her either so I don't see how that was bullying. She then said "Jakob's comments were public, everyone could see them." But he didn't want people to see the comments intentionally. But when Janelle left that video she wanted people to see it. She wanted people to believe that Jakob was a bad person. I put them on a group chat (which I usually hate doing) to solve the problem. But when I put them on a group chat they immediately started fighting. I asked them if they could just ignore each other but they ignored me like I never even said anything. I told them to stop fighting but they said "this isn't your fight." Later in the day I texted "I'm going to the beach you better not fight while I'm gone." Jakob said ok, and I went to the beach. Later that day when I was at the beach I got worried that they were fighting so I checked my phone just encase. There wasn't any fighting, but when I scrolled though Instagram, I saw a picture from Janelle and it said "You weed right, I was wrong. I deserve every insult. I'm sorry." Or something like that. I forgive her but I ignore her from now on. And hopefully so does Jakob and Janelle.