Exhale//Matty Healy

//UGH!//

~Matty~
Do I love her? Do I really love her?

She is wonderful but I really don't think that we are meant to be together.

I've gotten over being infatuated with her. She just looks like every other girl that I've dated. She's just average. My brain had decided me into thinking that she was the only one for me and that I couldn't live with out her.

I've never fallen in love with someone in the city so I don't know why I thought it would last this time. How stupid of me?

This couldn't have been real love. I mean it never was going to last at all. I don't do relationships. Never have and never will.

I can't even be in the same room with her without feeling guilty. That's why I go out every night.

I just can't tell because it will break her heart and that's the last thing I want to do.

I manage to get back to the real world to find Alex stood staring at me.

~Alex~
He was still stood just staring at me.

I picked up a glass from the counter and threw it at the wall next to him. The glass flew past his face and hit the wall, shattering into thousands of pieces and then they fell to the floor making small sounds as they touched the tiles.

"Well. Do you love me or not?" I asked again.

"I'm sorry." He mumbled.

I felt tears soon begin to trickle down my face and they dropped onto the floor mixing with the glass shards.

"What have I done wrong?" I asked Matty.

"It not you its me." He said.

"Don't give me this 'its not you' bullshit. I've heard it millions of times before." I shout at him.

"It really isn't you though." He told me.

"So what is it then? Why don't you love me anymore?" I shout the first part and then my voice trails off to a whisper at the end.

"Your just average. This was never going to work at all. This should have just been a one night stand. I wish I had never even met you." Matty told me.

"FINE. IF THIS IS WHAT YOU WANT THEN WE ARE THROUGH." I shouted at him.

I then left the kitchen and pushed past George and Ross and Adam who were trying to make me stay.

I walked outside and decided that I needed a good night out to forget about today. I headed down the road to the nearest bar with only one thing on my mind...

To get absolutely fucked up.

A/N - Happy Birthday to Matty!!!!