Exhale//Matty Healy

//The Ballad Of Me And My Brain//

Alex POV
I looked over and saw Matty sat next to me.

I put my cigarette out and threw it on the ground below me.

"What's wrong Alex?" Matty asked me.

"I'm scared Matty I'm really scared." I told him.

"Scared of what?" He asked me.

"Sacred that you will turn out like him." I said.

"Like who?" He asked me.

"My ex." I replied.

"I have made mistakes in my life and I have only ever made two mistakes with you and that was letting you go." He said.

"And what was the second one?" I asked him worriedly.

"That night you walked out I slept with someone. I truly regret it now and I wish now that I hadn't been such a dick." Matty told me.

I felt tears slowly slip down my face.

Matty gently wiped them away.

"I'm just so scared that you'll stop loving me or that you are using me. I'm scared that you'll break my heart and fuck me over. I'm scared that you never really loved me." I said and my tears began once again.

"I will never ever stop loving you and I am not using you and I wouldn't dream of using you for anything. I would never break your heart and I will never fuck you over and finally I have loved you since the moment I laid my eyes on you and I have lived you ever since and it would be impossible for me to ever stop loving you." Matty told me as he wiped away the tears that were trickling down my face.

"Do you really mean that?" I asked him.

"Of course. I meant every single word that I said." Matty told me.

"I love you so so so so much babe." I told him.

"Should we go back inside?" He asked me.

"Yeah." I said.

Matty climbed down the barrels and I saw that he was stood outside of the house.

"You can come down now!" He shouts to me.

I stood up and a tile from the roof fell to the ground and nearly hit Matty.

"Are you okay Alex?" Matty asked me.

"I'm fine. How are you?" I asked him.

"I'm fine. That nearly hit me but I am fine." Matty replied.

I climbed off the roof and onto the barrels. One of the barrels I stood on fell over and I landed face first on the ground.

"Shit Alex are you okay." Matty asked as he ran over to me.

I stood up and brushed myself of.

"I'm fine." I told him.

"Are you sure?" He asked me.

"Yep. 100 percent sure." I replied.

He pulled me into his side and hugged me as we walked back into the house.

I yawned and Matty looked down at me.

"I think it's time for you to go to sleep again." He said to me.

"I've only just woken up. I'll just stay with you and the guys and relax for a bit." I replied.

"Okay then." Matt replied.

The rest of the day was spent doing nothing except talking and smoking.