Exhale//Matty Healy

//Lostmyhead//

I woke up next to Matty who was still asleep. His chest was softly rising and falling. He looked so peaceful.

I carefully got out of bed and put on a pair of ripped black denim shorts with a grey top a pair of tights and my red doc martens.

I then walked outside of the house and climbed on the barrels next to the house and then onto the roof so I could have some peace and be able to think.

I sat on the edge of the roof and dangled my feet over the edge.

Should I really go back to Matty?

What if he fucks me over again?

What if he cheats again?

What if he doesn't love me?

Maybe this is all one giant lie?

What if I am just average to him?

What if he ignores me again?

What if he doesn't love me?

What if he is just like my ex?

What if he just wants to break my heart?

What if he never loved me and just used me?

My brain is going so quickly I don't think I can keep up.

I don't think I can do this anymore.

Do I really want to be played by Matty?

George POV
I woke up and saw that it was quite early so no one would be awake.

I put a white t-shirt on and a pair of black jeans. I then threw on a pair of trainers and went outside to have a cigarette.

I stood outside and looked up to the sky and saw legs dangling off the roof.

"Fucking hell. Who is that up there?" I said quite loudly in shock.

"Alex." She replied.

"What are you going up there?" I asked her.

"Just thinking." She replied.

I took one last drag of my cigarette and then climbed up to the roof and sat next to Alex.

"What's wrong Alex?" I asked her.

Alex POV
"What's wrong Alex?" He asked me.

"Everything." I told him.

"Why?" He asked me.

"Do you think that me getting back with Matty was a good idea." I asked him.

"I don't know Alex but that is for you and Matty to decide. I like you both and I don't want to lose either of you but if one of you feel that it isn't right then I think that it is best for you to leave it because neither of you want to be hurt in the end." George told me.

"Thanks George." I said to him.

"It's okay Alex." He replied.

"It's gonna go now. Do you want me to get Matty?" He asked me.

"Yes please. Thanks George." I said to him. He handed me a cigarette. I placed it in my mouth and George pulled out a lighter and lit it.

"Thanks." I said once more and he then climbed back down and went inside.

I just sat and watched the world go by.

Matty POV
I was woken up by George.

"Where's Alex? Is she okay?" I asked worriedly.

"She's on the roof. She's fine but I think it's best if you two have a little talk." George told me.

He then left the room.

I shot out of bed and threw on a random shirt and a pair of my black jeans and my black doc martens.

I ran outside and I saw clouds of smoke coming from the roof.

I quickly but carefully climbed up the barrels next to the house and onto the roof.

I saw Alex sat on the roof smoking a cigarette and she looked so content.

Do I really want to ruin such a peaceful creature?