Exhale//Matty Healy

//If I Believe You//

I woke up and saw that I was still in George's room. I got up and walked across the hall. I peered my head into mine and Mattys room and saw that it was empty.

I walked in and opened my bag. I grabbed some clothes and then I began to walk out when suddenly I bumped into a body. I looked and saw Matty.

I tried to get past him but he stopped me.

"Speak to me. Please. What have I done to deserve this silent treatment? Please just speak to me." He almost pleaded.

I just shook my head and pushed past him into the bathroom across the hall.

I got in the shower and washed away all of my problems. Or so I thought.

I dried myself off and got changed.

I Wales out of the bathroom and I quickly ran into mine and Mattys room. I placed my things on the floor.

"George told me what I did. I'm so sorry. I fucked up really baldy. Just know one thing... I love you. I love you so fucking much and I mean it." Matty told me.

I grabbed my cigarettes and lighter and walked outside.

I sat on the ground, lit my cigarette and looked out onto the world.

I breathed in the smoke and then exhaled.

"Alex I know that Matty fucked up but just hear him out. He really loves you. I've never seen him like this with any girl. Just give him a chance." George told me.

"I agree. Matty has never loved anyone as much as he loves you." Ross told me.

"He would do anything for you. If he didn't love you then he would have saved you and he definitely wouldn't have cried over you." Adam told me.

I instantly felt bad. I need to go and fix this.

I put my cigarette out and ran into the house.

I ran into mine and Mattys room and I saw Matty sat on the edge of the bed with his head in his hands.

"Matty." I said.

"Yes." He said looking up.

"I'm sorry for not listening to you." I sad to him my eyes meeting his gaze.

"I'm so sorry for being an arsehole to you the other night. I heard what happened to you and I just want you to know that I am so sorry that because of me you were put in harms way." He apologised.

"It's okay Matty. It wasn't your fault, I should have watched my drink better." I explained to Matty.

"I still love you Alex. With all of my heart, mind, body and soul. I love you so much." Matty said to me.

"If I believe you will you break my heart again?" I asked him.

"I can't promise anything but I'll try my very hardest not to." He tells me.

I stand there and think for a while.

"I love you. I really mean it Alex." Matty tells me breaking me away from my thoughts.

"I love you too Matty."