Twisted

Chapter 19:'Just a Day to Clear My Mind'

Amber's POV

Walking into the path of R.L Stine's darkness I saw the creepiest thing ever. It was--

"Amber!? Amber!?" Lou shouted at me. She was one of my mates at my work here in this coffee shop.
"What?" I said with a straight face.
"You've been glaring at that kid. He's literally pissing himself. Look!!" She said pointing at the direction of the kid pissing at the tiled floor while Bob was mopping it.
"Okay I'm sorry. I just got a weird-no very weird-daydream." I answered while scrunching up my nose.
Lou leaned over the counter with wide eyes and shouted,"What! Tell me!!!!!"
"No need to shout dude." I said while chuckling.
"Cut the crap and tell me." She said straightly.
"Okay,okay" I said while holding my hands up in the air. "I had a daydream about R.L Stine's monsters and that kid is one of them." I said seriously while pointing at the empty space that the kid occupied earlier.
Lou bursted out in laughing. "Are you freaking high!? Hahahahah. I can't believe that within that 20 minutes of you daydreaming that's what occupied your pea-sized brain?" She asked while still guffawing at me.
"Hey! My brain isn't pea-sized. And I'm not on drugs. I just don't know what came over me." I said while I bowed my head in embarrassment.
"Aww. Don't go shy on me now. We experienced a lot together,that's not one thing to be embarrassed about." She said seriously.
"Yeah you're right." I said,now confidently.
"I don't know what came over you. What happened one time-actually yesterday-you were really having a bad day,and now? You're having daydreams about goosebumps' stories. What's up? Like seriously? You've never been like this before. I think you are pretty high now." She said while scrunching up her nose in confusion.
"Its just that I don't know what to feel now. Like I don't know what to do. There's this feeling in me that wants me to be free and do anything I want but there's this pit feeling in my gut that I shouldn't run from all the problems that are running for me,blocking me. I'm literally fucking confused." I frowned in sadness and anger.
"Look." Lou started. "I don't know how to help you,heck I feel like you're the only one who can give a solution for your problem-this problema but all I know is one thing to keep you out of that problems. Let's just say its like a short term happiness." She said grinning wildly at me.
"Let me guess,shopping?" I asked flatly. Clearly not interested in the said 'solution'.
"Yes!!!!!" She hollered. "And we're going to do it whether you like it or not." Commanded me as she crossed her arms.
"Hey wait a minute. Should I have a say in this?" I asked while having and 'unbelievable' sort of appearance.
"No. And that's the end of it." She said flatly.
"But-" She cut me off.
"No buts." She said while glaring at me.

Well that's that. I have nothing to do now to change her mind. Heck her mind is unchangeable. She should really go to debate club,it'd be their great honor having her.

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We were walking down every store looking for the,I quote:'perfect clothes of happiness'. Like really what the fuck!? Since when are clothes radiate happiness? I complained that to her earlier but she just shoved me into her car,not saying a word about my question. Ha! She knows I'm right.

"Can we eat first?" I asked Lou,who is desperately eyeing every store.
"Wait! Let's go in here!!! Come on!" She exclaimed. Tugging me inside the store.
"Okay fine." I said exasperated.

She was browsing onto the clothes and her only attention is finding the ones that should fit her personality. Whilst me? I was just looking through it,not even bothering to rake some of these items.

While I was looking around this store,something-no someone-caught my eye. A certain grey-eyed boy but with a blond chick hanging onto his arm. Somewhere in that moment I felt something in the put of my stomach,and then I knew it was jealousy. But why? We were only best friends,nothing more,nothing less.

"You know,I know what you are thinking right now." Lou whispered as she too is staring at the odd-but new-couple in the distance.
"Really? What then?" I asked while lifting up one of my brows.
"You feel jealousy because you saw those two and can't understand why you felt that way,cause he's once was you best friend. And nothing more,that's the only relationship you had with him right?" She said,while staring at me intently. She knows that she's right. She had known me for so long,she can easily read me and my emotions. It's hard to lie to her.
"You know I think you should have some closure. Bring back what was lost. Then you'll see that that jealousy you're feeling,is just a sign that you should forget all what happened between you two. Don't you see,he was there beside you when you needed someone. Would cross the mountains to see you and make your day. And one little secret can break thing apart? Its not that easy babe. You should bring back and fix what's broken with you two. Be best friends again." She said while staring at me with concern.
"You're right." I started. "I don't even know what came over me,and fought with him. He was once the person who wouldn't back down,and I know he still is. But why do I feel he's giving up on out friendship,on me having his best friend again?" I asked. While strqing at them-the new couple.
"Cause you made him feel that." She said. "But don't lose hope. Its not over yet. Be friends again. Come on,I'm getting hungry and I know you are too. I saw the look on your face like you're going to eat everything here at this store." She said while trying to lighten up the mood.
"Haha you're certainly right at that. Come on,the food court awaits us!" I exclaimed. Now its my turn to grab her hard and pull her outside that store.

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We called it a day after we ate. She guessed that it was time for me to think about what she said. Lou is great friend. Actually,she is only my true friend. In school,there are some who classified themselves as my 'friends',but truth be told,they are only my friends because of Blake and my reputation. Lou is the only person who truly understands me. Heck! She's more that a mother than that bitch whom I call mom.

I was entering yet another empty mansion. Keeps getting better ain't it?

I rolled my eyes and went upstairs not bothering to eat dinner. I just laid on my bed staring at the ceiling,thinking about what will I do to make things between me and Daniel right. But sleep was slowly inching its way to me,until I decided that I have to do this on my own,no plans,just me,myself and I. Well wish me luck. I hope this would work.