Twisted

Chapter 4:Guilty

I woke up in a bright and shiny morning,the weather did not agree with my situation right now. Depressed.
I dreamt about what happened to me and Blake, I dreamt about that painful memory.
These nights were rare,where I dream about the past. In those nights,I break down and doesn't get to sleep again. That explains the depressed mode I'm in right now,because last night was like those rare nights.

I got up from bed and went to the bathroom,and I almost jump in shock because os my reflection: my eyes are red and puffy,and also portrays lack of sleep.
I still can't figure out why I had that dream,it's so weird,not normal weird but super creepy weird. Setting that thought aside, I strip all of my clothes and jumped into the shower,trying to let the water subside the pain and memories that has come to visit me last night. Gosh! Why did I let him break into my walls and let him love me? I'm such a fucking idiot!!
After that one-on-one debate,I clised the shower and got out and changed.
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I sat myself on my bed,thinking of my agenda today.

"Get your fucking ass out off bed Amber! You're late to school again!" Yelled my beloved brother Nathan.
"Fuck!" I silently cursed. I forgot about school.
"Are you going to get out or will I make you come out of there?" He yelled again with annoyance in his voice.
"Yeah yeah. I'm coming!!!" I yelled with equal intensity.

I went downstairs and met the scorching eyes if my brother.

"Let's go. Now." He said coldly. After that he stalked off going through the front door.
Someone's on their period again! Hahahahahah

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I come up the school doors and as I was going to open it,a hand stopped me from doing it. It was Daniel Collins,Blake's best friend.

"What do you want Collins?" I said meeting his cold-grey eyes.
"I just wanted to pass on the news. Blake has been caught and on unfortunate note,he died while he was getting away." He said,a tinge of sadness on those grey eyes.

Unlike Blake,his childhood best friend wasn't a criminal like him, he was just a badass at school, the reputation was given by his bestfriend. But Daniel can be badass if he wants to.

"What?" Sense of sadness and pain crashing down to me.
"Yeah. The gang's done,all of it are done." He said those words with his voice almost breaking at the end.
"How did this happen?" I asked,my own voice cracking.
"He was on a gun run,but that gun run was just a cover up-fake. To take Blake and the gang down." He said angrily.
"Fuck! When did it happen?" I asked.
"Last night. After you went home." He answered.

Holy fuck!!!!!!! I feel so guilty..
I would lie if I said I didn't care about him. He was once important to me, and maybe still is. That's why I feel so guilty now. I still care for him,but not romantically but as a friendly way.

I want to go back and change everything. But I can't. I want to but I really can't.

I didn't realize I was already sobbing. I didn't tell myself to stop. I let myself be brought away by tears. And soon darkness brought me away from reality.