Twisted

Chapter 9:Real Feelings

Amber's POV

I have come to love his 6-year old self when he came into our front door offering me cookies and his friendship. I loved his cute smile,even his laugh. But now that love-that I still feel for him-became a strong feeling of hate. A strong feeling that urged me to go and strangle him when my mom said those words. Daniel Collins-your childhood best friend. But a small part of me is thankful that I found out about the truth,because if I hadn't,I'd be all buddy-buddy to Daniel not knowing that he was the one who left me years ago.

Here I am now,sitting on the edge of my bed and had gave up on sleep like hours ago. I don't even know what time it is know. But that doesn't really matter with my situation right know. So I started plotting and planning this whole day and start to avoid my ex childhood best friend. I know it's stupid but I don't really want to talk to him right now,everything is moving too fast. I don't know what to do. From all those years yearning for the attention of my childhood best friend and now knowing that he was really right there for four years now. Gosh! I'm so stupid.

"Amber?" Nathan knocked on my door.
"Yeah?" I opened the door.
"Let's go to school." He said as concern was obvious in his voice.
"Okay." I said flatly.

I was ready for school hours ago. Since I couldn't sleep, I got ready for school.

I was riding on my car fo go to school,but there's a big part of me that wants to go home and snuggle on my bed. I don't want to meet people who are very judgemental at te same time plastic to everyone. And I most especially don't want to meet the reigning presence of the great Daniel Collins-my ex best friend. Gosh that sounds too awful- but eh.. Who cares anyway. I lost my sanity together with my heart years ago.

I was entering the school doors but there was this tingling feeling that someone is staring directly at me,and having the courage to glare at this person, I turned around and had met with the glorious grey eyes of Daniel Collins holding regret and a tinge of hope. Ha! Keep dreaming Collins if you have hope in fixing our friendship back. I rolled my eyes and went through the school's double doors since I was still holding it up.
--
All the subjects were done in a blur. Making it wasy for me not to think about anything. Well I'm not that scrawny little nerdy girl before,I've changed because of Blake. He took me up under his wing and changed me for the better-never emotional and stronger. Memories tried to surface up,but I easily pushed them back, I don't want to cry again.

I was going to open the driver's side door,when a hand stopped. Looking at the hand startled,I turned around. Then I met the grey eyes I was dreading to see,and have been avoiding from the start of first period.

Glaring at him. I grounded out. "What do you want?!"
"I just wanted to explain,look-" I cut him off really pissed.
"Didn't I already tell you that I don't want you talking to me that includes you trying to apologize." I nearly hissed at him.
"Can you just hear me off?" His voice getting irritated. Wow! He really have the nerve to be irritated.
"Oh now you're irritated?!" I asked angrily.
"Well you're being a stubborn bitch now. Blake was right you are insufferable!" He retorted scoffing.
His words hurt me deep. I didn't know that Blake felt like that with me. I guess I know the reason why he cheated.

Being hurt and angry at the same time. I swallowed the tears not entertained by the fact that Daniel will see it. I don't want pity.

I shoved him out of my way and opened the car door. And drove off quickly,tears were spilling now as I drive. Words hurt deep being stabbed with knife. Well atleast I already know now that he'll be leaving me alone. But why do I get that dread feeling in the gut that I have done the most regretful thing?