I Wish

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Sam walked out of the art room, and into the crowd, looking round and round the hallway feeling lost in the crowd with Nora.  Everyone seems to be going in different directions, and she felt lost.  She stood there for a few moments, looking bewildered, before Jasper noticed her, and pulled her into his side.   He smiled at her before pulling Zach into his other side.  Zach quickly unlinked himself from Jasper, and swung around to Sam's open side.   "Looking for Nora?" Zach asked, leading her down a hallway,  "You wont find her.  She's in meditation." He gave her a smile, and continued to trek down the hallway in a silence.  Meditation?  Sam thought, What the hell is she doing in meditation? The three continued down the hallways in a silence, before they reached Sam's bedroom.  She opened her mouth to ask what they were doing at her room before Jasper cut her off.  "It's quiet hour.  You can stay in your room, and sit, or you can go into the rec room.  I suggest you stay in your room.   The rec room can get a bit rowdy."  She was about to shut the door, when a thought struck her.  She turned around cautiously, and asked, "Will there be lunch?" Jasper and Zach looked at each other, and burst out laughing.  Jasper cleared his throat, and responded, "Well you're allowed to go to lunch, it's at 11:30, but we on the other hand," he began to laugh again so Zach finished for him.  "We aren't allowed at lunch anymore." They both burst out laughing.  Sam looked bewildered, and waited for them to finish their fit of laughter before asking, "Why are you guys..... You know what? Never mind. I don't wanna know. Don't even wanna know." She turned around, and shut the door.  She slid down the door and crawled to her bed on her elbows and knees. Her hands and feet were sore, and she felt exhausted.  She clawed her way up the bed, and relaxed for the first time all day.  As she melted into the bed, her thoughts turned to Rose.  She smiled and closed her eyes.  Rose was her happy place, her anchor. She snuggled further into the sheets, and drifted off to sleep.

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Sam awoke to the sound of knocking on her door.  She groaned and rolled over before realizing that she missed lunch.  She groaned again, and shoved her face into her pillow.  The knocking continued, so Sam dragged herself out of bed and walked to the door.  She opened it, and was suddenly awake when she saw Mandi at the door.  "Aren't you supposed to be watching over Rose?" She asked.  Mandi's face did a funny little spasm, "I don't need to anymore." she said.  Sam looked confused for a few seconds, and brightened up a bit before she asked, "Is she better?"  Mandi's face did the funny twitch again. Sam looked confused, not wanting to process what was going on.  She giggled nervously, waiting for Mandi to say something.  She didn't.  Sam's smile slowly slid off her face.  Her face went blank. Completely devoid of all expression. All sound went away as a roar like a wave washed over her.  Everything sounded muffled like she was underwater, and she stiffened up.  Rose is dead.  she thought.  Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead.  She could hardly hear anything over the roar of her thoughts.  She heard random phrases.  "subdural hematoma ............. didn't catch .......... too late ................... so sorry." She blocked out the rest of the world again with a crash of a wave.  Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead. She felt a pressure on her arm, and followed it blindly, not able to stop the loop in her head.  She felt the floor change under her feet, and the pressure on her arm disappeared.  Sam faintly heard a door shut, but she just stood there.  Didn't move a muscle.  Her eyes were wide open and unblinking.  She couldn't function.  She couldn't stop thinking the same phrase over and over and over. Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose is dead Rose. Is. Dead.