The World Is Ugly But You're Beautiful To Me

Live Forever If You Got The Time

I woke up on Mikey's lap, we were on the couch and Ray was in the kitchen making breakfast I turned around slightly to see Mikey smiling at me he had obviously just woke up as well.
"Morning Els," he kissed my head "how are you?"
"Morning Mikes, I eh...feel a bit better," I forced a smile but he could tell that I was making myself do it.
"Els," he said making me aware that he knew I was forcing it.
"Okay, I'm upset," I started welling up a bit and he comforted me, kissing my head and sitting me up on his lap, letting me rest my head on his chest.
"It's okay," he said kissing my head again I knew I liked him now I knew I wanted him to stop kissing my head and my cheek and kiss me on the lips, but I also knew I loved Gerard and I couldn't do that because he loved me too.
"Are you alright, you zoned out a little," he said and I snapped out of my chain of thought to see him smiling softly.
"Uh, yeah I'm okay I was just thinking," I smiled back at him.
"What about?" He asked pulling my head back to his chest and letting me close my eyes.
"Just, everything and nothing really," I replied before I knew it I was asleep again and dreaming about some random shit probably to do with music.

***

I opened my eyes to see Gerard sitting beside me watching the shining, he jumped and I instantly smirked at him trying not to laugh but failing completely and letting out a giggle.

"You're awake?" he smiled at me as I nodded "How much of that did you see?" he asked.

"Enough to tell everyone!" I laughed and got up to run and tell them all and Gerard chased after me laughing his head off as I swung around the corner to see them all sitting there.

"NOOOO!" he shouted.

"Gerard nearly shat himself watching the shining!" I shouted and jumped on the couch beside Frank and hid behind a cushion as they all laughed and Mikey tried to stop Gerard from killing me.

"OH YOU ARE SO FUCKING LUCKY E!" he laughed as I hid behind Frank.

"I woke up and saw him jump like three feet in the air!" I laughed and Gerard got out of Mikey's grip and chased me around the couch."GERARD ARTHUR FUCKING WAY!" I shouted running away and up the stairs and into Frank's room slamming the door shut behind me and leaning on it.

"E!" he shouted from outside the door obviously trying not to laugh.

"GEE!" I called back but there was no answer I got down and looked under the slight gap in the door to see him lying on the floor passed out. "Gerard?!" I swung the door open and Frank, Mikey, and Ray walked up the stairs as I bent down to see him

"BLAGH!!!" he jumped causing me to jump and fall over on top of him.
"GERARD!" I laughed as he smiled brightly and the guys walked up beside us.
"You fell for it!" He laughed
"No shit I did I bought you were dead!" I playfully hit him.
"Don't worry I'm alive!" He sat up laughing
"I can see that!" I laughed as he pulled me down to he floor beside him.
"Did I scare you?" He teased
"Maybe," I looked at my hands and he hugged me as I welled up remembering what Frank had told me the day before.
"Sorry I forgot," he whispered in my ear
"It's okay," I whispered back and the guys took the hint before walking into Ray's room.
"Seriously I'm sorry," he said again
"I know it's okay," I put my head on his shoulder and let a couple of tears out but Gerard had wiped them away before I could really register that I had been crying.
"I love you E," he said kissing my head.
"I love you too Gee," I said as he pulled me closer to him before sitting me on his lap and holding me like that for a good half an hour.

***
"Hey lovely are you alright?" Ray asked as I opened my eyes to see him standing beside me.
"Yeah I'm okay," I smiled as I sat up a bit and let him sit where my head was and then put my head back on his lap.
"You drool when you sleep," he laughed
"What?" I wiped my mouth
"It's cute, extremely funny but cute," he said smiling which made me laugh.
"Thank you," I giggled.
"How are you feeling you keep falling asleep on us!" He laughed.
"I feel really ill," I said as he stroked my hair.
"Like throwing up ill or I need a fucking ambulance ill?" He asked as I sat up and he pulled me on to his lap so I could put my head on his chest and keep my eyes closed.
"Throwing up like for the last week," I answered sleepily.
"I haven't saw you throw up," he said confused
"It's normally before you guys get up ," I cleared it up.
"Oh so like early morning?" He asked
"Yeah but I think- yep two seconds," I ran to the bathroom and threw up but Ray was holding my hair out of my face and patting my back as I done it.
"Okay yeah you're definitely sick," he smiled as I pulled myself up.
"No shit," I answered as he took a cloth and wiped my mouth.
"Seriously you're ill E," he looked worried "do you want me to take you to the doctors?" He asked rubbing my leg.
"No it's fine maybe if I'm still sick in a couple of days I'll go," I answered and he smiled "hey where's Gerard?" I asked.
"I don't know he went out last night and he's not came back," he told me and I knew something was up.
"Did he say where he was going?"
"The...shop," he looked at me he had obviously clicked something was up.
"Ray?" I asked "what's he doing?" I looked at him with big eyes.
"We're going looking for him," he stood up and put out his hand and hen pulled me up we were really close now and he seemed to be looking at his feet, please tell me he didn't like me too.
"Eh let's go then," I smiled and pulled him out to the car, we got in and drove around with "Thank You For The Venom" on at full blast.
"RAY STOP!" I shouted above the music making him stop the car and pause the music.
"What?" He asked as I got out the car
"Slide," I pointed running up to see Gerard lying on the slide, drunk. "Gerard?" I asked shaking him making him wake up.
"E?" He asked standing up and pulling me close to him. "You look pretty today," he said completely drunk.
"You're drunk," I said as I went to walk with him back to the car but he grabbed my wrist and pulled me back.
"So what?" He asked trying to kiss me but I pulled away and dragged him to the car.
"Wait!" He shouted as we walked up "I know where Frank is!" He looked at me.
"Where?" I asked
"You have to kiss me if you want to find out,"
"Gerard tell me where he is," I demanded
"Will you kiss me?"
"No I won't because you're drunk,"
"So if I wasn't drunk would you kiss me?"
"Gerard-" he kissed me and grabbed my waist but Ray had pulled him off of me.
"Fine but you know I could have any girl I want!" He made my heart stop for a second "and it would be easy to get her!" I could feel my heart breaking as he said it.
"What are you saying?" I asked holding back tears.
"What do you think I'm saying?" He asked
"It sounds like you're trying to piss me off," I said with tears in my eyes.
"Nope!" he laughed
"What then?" I half shouted
"I'm saying that I made out with another girl last night!" my face went pale.
"You what?" I was barley audible
"And I might have kinda slept with her too!" he laughed and Tay punched him in the face as I turned away and ran off crying.