The World Is Ugly But You're Beautiful To Me

Without You Is How I Disappear

"Ella?" I whispered...nothing.

No movement, no breathing, no smiles, no laughs, no words. Just silence.

"Els?" I lay my head oh her stomach. All I wanted to do was scream and cry and just make her come back to me, I needed her to be here with me.

"Frankie?" I heard a frail voice, I zoomed up to see Ella eyes slightly open,

"ELLA!" I screamed as I hugged her and everyone crowded round to see if she was okay, paramedics and doctors squeezing in to fix her up and put her on a bed, I swear to shit she never once let go of my hand even when they were putting her on the bed.

***

Waiting.

 Waiting.

Waiting.

We sat outside the room until a doctor shouted on me.

"Mr.Iero?" he asked, I didn't even care tat he mispronounced my name I just shot up and ran over to him quicker than I had ever run before.

"YES?" I asked him terrified of what was about to happen.

"Ella, you've been feeding her?" he asked making me raise an eyebrow

"Yeah, obviously she's been eating...I-I think at least." I thought about it, I hadn't actually seen her eat for a while, I just assumed that she had eaten "actually, I haven't seen her eat in a while." I told him

"Well it seems that she's not been eating," he told me cautiously "it doesn't seem like a disorder more of a stress based situation," he carried on "but she hasn't eaten in a good six days."

"W-what?" I stuttered

"Has she been under any stress in the last week or so?" he asked to which I nodded my head. "Well it seems that she's not been eating at all," he told me, you see Ella had always been skinny, not thigh gap skinny but skinny, she didn't eat a lot as it was. She was short and skinny and didn't eat a lot, I assumed it was normal but I guess she was seriously under doing it. "We've put her in a medically-induced coma, she needs nutrients so she should wake up in a day or so," he smiled slightly.

"Thank you, oh when can I see her?" I asked shaking

"Well she's unavailable right now due to tests but you should be able to see her tomorrow, as for right now I'd say go home and get some rest come back tomorrow around nine am?" he asked

"Yes, thank you." I walked back to the guys and explained, they were all shocked.

"You're saying that Els could have an eating disorder?" Mikey asked worriedly

"Yes, I'm saying she COULD have an eating..." I trailed off at the end

"But it's Els," Ray stated, I wasn't sure what his point was "I mean, she's our Ella, why would she do that?" he asked

"I have no clue, Ray," I told him, "the doctor said it could have been she was so stressed that she hadn't eaten, " I said nearly crying

"Listen, Frankie, it'll be okay." Gerard hugged me and I let out all the tears I had held back.

"But she's sick, she died and then came back!" I shouted, "What if she does that one night and just doesn't wake back u?" I nearly fell to the floor but Gerard kept me steady.

"FRANK!" Gerard making me shut the fuck up "Don't say that, she'll be fine okay?" he smiled, I calmed down and they took me to Starbucks, by the time I got home it was around one.

***

Ring. Ring. Ring.

I shot up and looked at the time, it read "4;32am 26 March" I answered my phone quickly.

"Hello?" I asked

"Hello, is this Mr. Iero?" the guy said my name wrong but I agreed

"Yes, it is why?" I asked cautiously

"This is Dr. Smith, from Noir hospital," I jumped off my bed and started getting changed knowing it was Ella "We have some distressing news," I slouched down on my bed speechless "Ella, has passed away." I dropped the phone and tears came rolling down my face as I put the phone on speaker so I could cover my face.

"W-What?" I stuttered

"She passed away, Mr. Iero," he repeated "I'm so sorry-" I cut him off and hung up the phone, I lay back on my bed and went completely numb.

Ella? Els? E? Shortie? I thought to myself. I stood up and flung my phone aginst the wall, along with anything else around me I could find.

"FRANK?" Gerard walked into my room to see everything I had threw at the wall "Are you al-"

"NO IM NOT ALRIGHT GERARD!" I screamed at him "ELLA'S GONE!" I threw my lamp at the wall and Gerard walked over to me, he grabbed my hands so that I would stop.

"FRANK!" he screamed at me

"WHAT?" I yelled at the top of my lungs.

"GET THE FUCK UP!" and that's the last thing I remember, I woke up to Ella getting up.

"Ella?" I asked and she turned to me

"Huh?" she asked

"W-what day is it?" I asked

"It's March 25th why?" she smiled lying back down and hugging me

"But, you died- and we got engaged and I brought you back then you died again-" 

"It was just a bad dream, honey," she smiled kissing me "well other than getting engaged, that sounds quite fun," she smiled before getting up "Now I'll be in the bathroom,! she smiled getting up and walking out.

WHAT?

WHAT?

WHAT?

WHAT?

Was it a dream? How? 

It felt so real and I was so scared. "Els?" I got up ad walked to the bathroom door "have you been eating lately?" I asked

"Why?" she asked

"Extremely realistic nightmare," I told he

"Well yeah but not a lot," she told me walking out 

"Get your sassy ass down there and eat something, come on," I pulled her down the stairs and gave her literally everything I could find in the cupboards.

ELLAS POV

"Frankie!" I stopped him from bringing more food over and wrapped my arms around his neck.

"huh?" he smiled 

"I'm okay," I told him, he smiled and dropped the food on the floor to kiss me. "It was just a dream," I reassured him with a smile 

"But it was so realistic," he said pulling me into the hug

"I'm fine, I'm great, Frankie," I smiled, "I'm amazing, I am o fucking kay!" I shouted making him laugh

"If you're sure?" he smiled to which I nodded in reply "Okay," he smiled again before kissing me, have I mentioned how much I love this guy?

"So back to the bedroom?" I asked already trying to get him back up

"What's in it for me?" he asked

"Oh, you know fine well what's in it for you!" I laughed 

"In that case let's go!" he picked me up bridal style and ran up the stairs while I laughed.