The World Is Ugly But You're Beautiful To Me

If we sing these words we'll never die

"El?" Frank walked into the hospital room "eh Gerard's here he wants to know if he can talk to you?" He asked
"Okay," I smiled at him and Gerard walked in, I told Frank he could leave and I would be fine, so he left with slight disappointment on his face. Gerard stood at the side of my bed smiling.
"Hey Els," he said taking my hand.
"Hey Gee," I smiled at him
"I heard what you done, that was seriously brave," he smiled "you're really brave," he corrected himself.
"Thanks," I smiled at him.
"Listen, I know you probably hate me, but I'm sorry- and I get it if you don't forgive me, I've been shitty." He told me shaking, I didn't know if I should forgive him or not but he was giving me those eyes, those god damned eyes always got me.
"Gerard-" he stopped me
"Els I'm so sorry," he told me taking my other hands and kissing it.
"I know you are, I- eh...I forgive you." I told him and he looked so happy, oh fuck me. I always gave in to him when he gave me those eyes.
"You do?" He asked and I nodded "Els," he hugged me and I hugged him back.
"Gee?" I asked "I just want to ask," he pulled away and looked at me "why did you do it?" I had to know why he done it.
"I got drunk because I saw how close you and Frank were, it pissed me off and I slept with her because I thought you would sleep with him and I don't fucking know why I thought that." He told me "it just killed me to think that you two were better together than we were." He leaned down a little closer to me. "It killed me to think that you loved him more than you loved me." His arm grazed against mine and I got goosebumps, like the first time we kissed. I can't do this fuck. I love Frank, I love Frank I can't kiss him I love Frank. He smiled at me and I could feel butterflies in my stomach, shit no I couldn't do this not again.
"Gee," I said pulling myself up "at that point me and Frank weren't together, we were just good friends." I told him
"What about now?" He asked but before I could answer he was kissing my cheek.
"We uh." I was too distracted to finish as he was kissing my jawline and then my "I- Gerard," I said shaking at how much I wanted to push him away.
"Gee," I said pulling away a bit "we can't do this, it's too much for me okay?" I told him
"I guess I'll take this back then," he said with a ring in his hand.
"Wh-what?"I gasped no.no.no.FUCK NO. How? What? Why?
"It was for you, still is if you want it?" He asked
What was he asking me?
"What are you asking here?" I asked
"I'm asking you to marry me," he told me "Els I love you, I want to be with you forever and I want to have kids with you, and grow old with you, I want to be with you." He told me before getting down on one knee "and I'm sorry this isn't romantic, but will you make me the happiest man on earth and marry me?" He asked.

WHAT

THE

FUCK?

How do I react? What do I say? Am I even with Frank? My brain is racing I have about ten million questions and no answers to any of them. I don't know what to say, I want to say no and I want to slap him in the face for even thinking about it, I can't think or breathe.
"I...eh...I" I couldn't breathe all I wanted to say was that I need to think about it.
"Are you alright?" He asked standing up and hugging me.
"I, can- can I have a minute?" I asked
"Yeah do you want me to wait outside?" He asked me smiling
"Uh yes please," I smiled and he kissed my cheek before leaving.

Frank walked in and saw me having what seemed like a heart attack even though I was just panicking.
"What's wrong?" He ran up to me and hugged me but I stood up. "Els!" He shouted as I took out the needles and wires connecting me to the machines.
"I can't do this anymore." I told him walking to the door but he lay on it keeping it closed.
"Els talk to me." He smiled
"It's Gerard," I started "he asked me to marry him," Frank looked shocked, I lay on the door before sliding down to sit which Frank joined me in.
"He what?" Frank looked at me worried
"He proposed."
"What did you say?" He asked
"I told him I needed to think but I can't, I love you and I want to be with you." I said leaning in and kissing him.
"Okay well, " he picked up one of the cans on the table and opened it before taking off the thing on the top and standing me up. "There's only one thing I can do," he said getting down on one knee. "Els, I love you so much you are everything to me and I can't bare to think about my life with out you, so I don't want to live it. You are the most amazing, kindest, smartest, nerdiest, gorgeous girl I have ever and will ever know. So will you make me the happiest person alive and do me the honour of being my wife?" He asked with my left hand in his,
"Frank!" I smiled happily before getting down to be level it's him. "Of course I will!" I smiled through tears of happiness as he put the thing from the can on my finger.
"Els I love you so much," he told me
"I love you too, Frankie." I pulled him into a kiss as he cupped my face, we're engaged.
I'm engaged, to Frank.

I am engaged to Frank Iero and we're in love
We're in love.