Flower Moon (Luna Series)

Chapter 4 Waxing Gardenias

Chapter 4 "Waxing Gardenias"

I took a mouthful of air and decide to throw my bookbag on my shoulder and go into the treatment center. I felt my heart racing in my chest. What was wrong with me? Get a hold of yourself. I opened the glass door to see only a few students sitting. I had to make a rational decision to either turn right back around and never go back in or to ask the medical clerk about Jave. I worked in the medical field as a candy stripe nurse in high school so if Jave's a patient I would not know but if he is staff it would be easy to find out. Thank privacy laws if my dreamboat is suffering from anything I will just have to wait. It might be why he has not actually contacted me after the night we met up at my house.

"Good morning," the desk clerk said sliding the window to the office.

"I was looking for Jave." I remarked as I continue to tap my right feet really fast. My anxiety had finally hit me. The eyes of the other sorority girls staring up from their IPhone. Many of the guys were your usual college jocks not worrying about nothing around them.

"You mean Mr. Shehata and yes have a seat," she said as she hands me a clipboard fill out questions.

I could have just said never mind but I have gone this far to ask for him. I sat when I saw his name on the form. I found a seat in a secluded area away from the other college students. I pull out a pen from my bag and started quickly on the form looking up once or twice to see if I could get a glimpse of Jave. He was the health center psychologist. Fuck no! I cannot believe I was acting like the slut of the year with a campus professional.

If I get up and leave it would be oblivious I was coming to only see him. I check to depress. That was easy since life been a bundle of let downs. I finished the simple form. I carried the form back watching the desk clerk slide the window to pull it back.

I sat waiting to want to talk to him. Part of me was mad that he just disappear that night without a trace. I felt that need to share my thoughts about how he left me hanging on a string without any communication. My heart began to race faster as I develop quick symptoms of restless leg disease. I knew it was only my anxiety to see him once more.

"Penny?" the nurse said opening the door.

I stood frozen for a second. I did not know should I just walk out while I still had a chance or go see if this is the Jave I been daydreaming about since the day at the fair. I walk toward the nurse to enter the back when the door slam.

"Follow me," she said as she led me to the office.

My heart stops when I saw him looking over papers on his desk. I walked softly to the seat. I could not believe I was doing this. I must be crazy to go this far to see if this was that guy. Maybe he did not like me anyway. What if I made a mistake because he was so much on my mind during Folklore 101? We passed down many others who were being counseled. The clerk opens the door as I stood a few seconds to walk.

"Good..." Jave said as he was stun to see me.

"I kind of saw you go into the clinic and I was wishing you were a student but," I remarked as I sat my backpack to the floor.

"Brave, I don't know if I would have gone that far," Jave said as he slightly began to smile.

"I the sign on the door." Penny

"Life is Beautiful, be not part of the crowd but stand out." Jave smile was bigger.

That is when the ice was broken. I did not feel frozen anymore. You know that moment when you're between scare stiff to just a belly of butterflies trying to escape. We both could laugh at me and felt mutual about the decision.

"I saw your textbooks but I did not know you go here," Jave remarked as those green eyes shine.

He had such a wonderful soul and character from the energy he created in his office. I could tell from his eyes that the window of opportunity was growing for me. His aura was showing nicely with the sunlight that shines through the clinic window.

"I guess you never called and I wanted to know what happens," I remarked.

"Busy and I been turning in early," Jave said as he sat back in his chair.

"Maybe it was a bad idea for me to come and worry you," I said standing to my feet.

"No." he grabs my wrist firmly. "I missed you," he said.

This was the words I wanted to hear. That I did not just march myself back here to be made a fool out of. I felt a sense of honor to be in his presence.

I cross my fingers and held my good luck stone to my chest. Earth, air, fire, and water make this fellow love me in every part of the natural world associated with your elements. Mote, it be.

"Are you fine?" Jave questioned me as I let go of my stone that dangles around my neck.

"I guess a little nervous," I remarked as I uncrossed my fingers and crossed my legs.

"Maybe we can go out tomorrow?" Jave question me as he set his pen down on the desk.

"That will be fine if I can go to your place this time," I suggested since this will be a guaranteed date.

Jave stared at me for a moment with those darling green eyes. Soon he winked his right eye and smiled.

"Sure write down my address," he remarked as he hands the notepad to me.

I pick up the pen writing as fast as I could. I was anxious that I had to ask again since even I could not understand my handwriting.

"I guess I will not hold you anymore," I stood to my feet handing the notepad back to Jave.

"Tomorrow at five?" Jave questioned me as I pick up my bookbag.

"I be there with bells on," I turn to walk to the door.

Oh my I know he is still watching me. Did I walk fine? I inhale and softly exhale to open the door. I slowly turn around to close the door in the hope he was still watching. Jave was back to work on his desk. It was fine I had a date with him. It is worth cutting a campus meeting in half.