Love, war, and football

Chapter 43

I apologize now, for all the lateness. I try to be good, I'm failing. So enjoy, comment, and vote please! :D

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Usual POV: (Taylor's)

That's a good question, one I can't answer. I'm not sure what's going on. By now I've calmed down, but I just don't know what to do now besides doing what I already did, which was find a place I could temporarily escape to. The question is how long can I hide or run?

Running isn't my thing. I've learned to face anything in my way. But all of this that just happened, I can't face it all by myself and I know that, I'm not dumb, well okay at times I'm not dumb. This is too much for me to handle and the proof was how I reacted to it all. At the moment I do want to be by myself but at the same time I wish I had someone to lean onto and help me figure out some things.

What now? What's going to happen to my life now? What am I going to do? What can I even do? Ugh, why do I have so many unanswered questions to think about?! Yeah I'm actually thinking straight-ish, but still.

"Taylor...earth to strange child who can kick my ass." I blinked and my face heated up when I realized Oliver has been trying to get my attention.

"And don't forget it," was my instant response. Oliver chuckled and shook his head before looking at me seriously.

"You don't know do you?" I shook my head as I looked away and got the food out. Am I really embarrassed that I don't know? I mean its reasonable right? "Hey, it's alright." Well I guess, but still, like come on, this is me we are talking about. "Taylor, stop zoning out on me for a sec."

I shook my head to clear it and turned to Oliver. "Sorry, go on."

"It's okay that you don't know. It's perfectly understandable actually. I mainly just wanted to let you know, you aren't going through this alone alright? We are all here for you." I nodded and he opened an arm and gave me a shy grin. I rolled my eyes at him before briefly hugging him.

"Thanks Oliver," I say before we let go and he stands up with a huge grin.

"You actually called me by my name and without the mister part. I feel special." I shot him a small glare and he just grinned at me.

"Don't get used to it." He raised his hands defensively as he backed up towards the door.

"Oh and I did get you Ice cream, I put it in the freezer downstairs. If you need anything let me know, I'm right down the hall." I gave him a nod before he left.

As I ate, I just thought on what to do. I am still frustrated, I realized that much when I also realized that for the past ten minutes I was acting like my normal self. Which means, I'm still frustrated and confused and all those other feelings that still keep my mind busy, but I'm not letting it get to me...too much. I have to just sort it all out before I could figure out on what to do though.

My life was never typical, but it just took a plummet to the ground. Ugh, too many emotions just led to me feeling well in a way depressed. Not sad depressed. More like the 'I don't know what to do with myself' depressed.

Sighing, I finished eating and decided I knew exactly what I needed. Ice cream. And to get into my fluffy pjs and a baggy t-shirt. Time to just watch a comedy on a t.v. I went out and was surprised I didn't see Annie or Drake. I did see that my room was across the hall because the door was opened and I saw my bags near the door.

Well, at least I know where my things are. Going downstairs, I still didn't see nobody as I went into the kitchen, throwing away the take-out plates and then going back upstairs. I went to my new room and looked around it.