First/True Love [Completed]

Chapter 8

Chapter 8

GRAY'S POV

Nagising ako nang may magaan na dibdib ngayon. I checked on the calendar at my room's wall and I smiled because the date today was encircled.

          April 24, 20**

          I also checked the clockon my side table.

          Iwoke up earlier than usual. It's still five in the morning. But I preparedmyself because I should be on the hospital at seven in the morning.

          Iasked Nanay Coring to prepared my breakfast and pack some lunch. I also asked herto prepare snacks. She smiled before doing what I asked.

          Onehour and thirty minutes after she's done preparing  and I'm ready to go. I also bought boquet offlowers before I go to the hospital

          Atexactly seven, I'm already here in hospital. Nilatag ko yung mga dala ko atnilagay ko sa vase yung flower at nilagay sa side table nang kama ni Jade

          "Hi,love. Flowers for you. I'm here again. At kahit pa forever tayong mag-usap ditosa kwartong ito, hinding hindi ako magsasawa basta wag ka lang matulog janhabang buhay ha? I miss you love." Hinalikan ko yung noo nya bago umupo.

Yanpalagi ang routine ko. I never forget to kiss her forehead when I enter orbefore I leave the room.

          Tinitiganko yung maamong mukha ni Jade. I will never get tired on staring her beautifulface.

          "Kamustaka na dito? Hindi ka ba nalulungkot? Your mom cannot go home because her bossdidn't allow her to be in the Philippines. Your dad is in the work too andJerro can't take his day off. Pero pupunta daw sya dito mamaya after work at siJerome may klase din. Kaya ako lang muna kasama mo ngayon ha, love?" Silence.

          Tinignanko yung relo kung anong oras na. 7:15 AM.

          Fifteenminutes na pala akong nandito. I count down silently. 60 59 58... 10 9 8 7 6 54 3 2 and "HAPPY 20TH BIRTHDAY JADERELLE ARTEMIS AQUINO. I LOVE YOU,LOVE," Hinalikan ko ulit sya but this time sa lips.  I cried loudly. Mabilis lang yun pero anglakas lakas nang tibok nang puso ko. haay!! I fell in love, hard. But I'm happybecause Jaderelle is the one who took my heart.

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Iheard that voice again. He said, HAPPY 20TH BIRTHDAY JADERELLE ARTEMIS AQUINO. I LOVEYOU, LOVE.

          I don't know why my heart is beatingso fast when he uttered that sentence. Am I really Jaderelle? Because if I am,I'm so lucky there is someone who can love me deeply.

I want to find that voice. No I need to findthat voice because I want to ease the pain he's suffering. I heard him cryingand everytime he cries, he always talks to me.

I wanted to hug him and tell him it's gonnabe alright but I can't figure it out where will I go?

I've seen two ways and when I choose the leftone, I've been always coming back here and then I drown with blankness again.

And now, I chose the right one. And when I'malmost at the end, someone's gonna pull me again and I came back in the usualplace. There is someone who appeared in front of me. I can't figure it out ifhe/she is a boy or a girl. he/she is beautiful creature with the most angelicface that I've ever seen.

He/she asked me something that bothered thehell outta me. "Are you sure you want to come back because the last time Iremembered, you wished to end your life so that you can't feel pain anymore."

I answered him/her. "I do not know what youare saying and I do not know if I still want to come back because I can't evenremember something except the pain I felt before I ended my life. Is theresomeone loving me at the other side or if I come back there, I will foreveralone again? I don't know what I'm talking about either."

He/she smiled at me with the most encouragingsmile that I've ever seen. "Just think and use your heart to decide becausewhen your heart chooses, it will be always right."

I stared at him/her with the confusing lookbut he/she just smiled at me before he fades.

I feel my heart. It's beating abnormally.Will your answer be always right, heart?

That was the last question before it becameall black to me again.

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GRAY'S POV

          "Love,I need to go home now. See you tomorrow when I get back here. I love you Jade.I'll miss you." I kissed her forehead before walking away in that room.

          Come back soon, love. I whispered inair. I wished God will allow you to come back on us.

          Isighed. Hindi naman sa nagsasawa akong maghintay na magising sya pero I startedto get tired. I don't want to feel hopeless but I'm starting to believe thatshe won't come back to us anymore.

          Ihate this feeling. I shouldn't have felt this. I sighed again and walk away inher room.

          God,please help me not to lose hope. Help me not to get tired of waiting for her. Idon't want her to know that everyone          gaveup on her. I'm the only who never gives up so please, don't make me feel giveup on her yet. I want her to feel that I'm still waiting for her. I'm stillhoping for her to come back. I still love her so much.