Into The Darkness. (Completed)

Ch.17-Hurting Everyone I Love.

*LILAH P.O.V.*

I laid there, thinking about what might happen. Staring at the ceiling, I hoped that my husband would beat cancer. He deserves to live, he has only been on this earth for twenty years. We are supposed to grow old together and have grandkids. That is our future and cancer wasn't involved. Too bad my dream isn't reality. This isn't fair. Why couldn't I be the one with leukemia? Why does Harry have to go through this?

Hot tears are streaming down my face. I covered my mouth with my hand, hoping not to wake Harry. I quietly got up out of our bed and hobbled over to the bathroom. Once I knew I couldn't be heard, I willingly let the tears fall.

Harry can't die.

I love him too much.

He can't leave me, or Darcy.

Harry has to fight this disease, he can't leave me alone in the darkness.

I need him.

My Hazza bear, the love of my life can't leave me.

At the end of that last thought, I completely broke down. I don't care anymore if I wake up Harry. I couldn't even fight for the tears to stop, it was impossible, almost impossible as making it through the darkness.

There was knocking coming from the bathroom door. Shit. I forgot to lock the door. Harry walked in, a worried expression spread across his face.

"What's wrong?" Realization struck him. He knelt down and wrapped a comforting arm around me. "Don't cry Love. Everything will be alright. We will get through this, together."

I sniffled, only to be greeted by more tears. "What if it.. it isn't okay.. what if.. something.. goes wrong?"

"It won't. I will do whatever it takes to beat this." He looked at me with reassuring eyes.

I let out a sob. "I'm scared Harry." Harry had tears glistening in his eyes.

"I'm scared too. I will do whatever It takes to get better."

"You better. I love you." I whispered.

"I love you. Can we go back to bed now?" I nodded. Harry unwrapped his arms around me and picked me up bridal style. I squealed through the tears. Harry plopped me on the bed and cuddled up next to me. Once again, I fell into a dreamless sleep.

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*HARRY P.O.V*

I quietly crept out of my bed, heading towards the kitchen. I grabbed a sheet if paper and a pen. I began to scribble down words in my messy handwriting.

3/16/13

Lilah,

I'm very sorry that I have leukemia. It wasn't only a shock to you, but to all of us. I know you are very concerned about me, but I will get through this. I love you very, very much. Don't ever forget that. 'For better or for worse. In sickness and in health.' I need you to stand by my side during this whole process. You will only be reading this note, once you discover the box. I have put together a box for you. Inside that box, is a bunch of memories, of us, the lads, and Darcy. I deeply hope that you won't ever have to discover what is inside this box. This is the first letter of many. We will get through this together; as a family. I love you. Forever and Always.

Harry, xx

I dropped the pen, and folded up the letter. I quietly walked back into my bedroom and placed the folded up letter into the hidden shoe box. I quickly scribbled down a note, telling Lilah that I'm at the studio. I place the note on her forehead and taped it. I grabbed my jacket and went for my car.

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"Don't let me. Don't me. Don't let me go, 'cause I'm tired of sleeping alone." I wrote down the final worlds of the song.

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"Bye, Paul!" I said as happily as I could muster. I had to call my Mum and Dad still. I had to tell Gemma.. I had to explain to my daughter why her Daddy would be getting weak and ill. I walked into a small building that looked like a worn down cafe, no one was in there. I pulled my phone out and dial my Mums number.

"Harry! I miss you my baby." Mums voice rang through the speaker. I bit my lip, trying to cease the tears I knew were bound to come.

"Hi Mummy." I said softly.

"Harry, are you alright?" I could hear the concern dripping from her voice. That's when I lost it, I placed the phone on my knee and screamed, tugged at me curls and lost it. How am I supposed to tell my Mum that I have cancer?! How am I supposed to let her bury her own son?! I picked the phone back up and tried to calm down my full on sobbing.

"Mum I love you." I cried.

"Honey, what's wrong? Why are you crying?!" She said frantically.

"Mummy, I have Leukemia." I sobbed. I needed my Mum here, to tell me everything was going to be fine, to kiss my boo boo all better. But she couldn't heal this, my breaking heart. The line was dead except for her heavy breathing.

"Harry stop." Her voice cracked.

"Mummy-I, I need you here." I broke. I felt like a little child crying to his Mum because of a scraped knee.

"Don't play with me, Harry." She said seriously.

"I'M NOT LYING MUM!" I yelled.

"I'm getting in my car, I'll be there in 5 hours, love. I'm hurrying. I love you so much, my baby. You'll always be my baby, remember? Remember when I told you that? Don't forget that, no matter what." She cried. I screamed in frustration.

"Mum, I'm hurting everyone I love.."

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Welp, this was written by both of us (: I can you I cried a whole lot reading & writing this. Oh damn :'(

-Kit&Kat. <3 ]