Into The Darkness. (Completed)

Ch.27-Let Me Go.

Even in your presence I feel as if you're already gone. Because your withering state has brought me to believe that no amount of medicine or help could heal your tethered body and heart. But once I look past the dead look in your emotionless green eyes I've grown accustomed to, I see the love I've been dying for, the love I knew you could no longer produce. I see the little spark still ignited, but the fight is being drained out of it. I see your lips that held so much passion and words of love but now.. All they tell is the sorriness that has captured every essence of this life we now live. We live in the dark, and our endless search for the light at the end of the tunnel has come to a halt. No longer finding the hope or courage to continue, because the light doesn't exist. So we will sit in this gloomy place until you, my love, are brought into the loving light. Because for you, there is light at the end of the tunnel.

***

It's been two weeks since Harry has been in the hospital. According to Richard, he isn't going to be getting better. It kills be inside to see him in all this pain. I haven't left at all, not even once. I've been showering here while Harry gets his daily checkup. I haven't ate in at least a week and a half.

But, that's not the thing that breaks my heart. Harry doesn't remember. He doesn't remember me, the lads, or Darcy. Harry has little flashes where he remembers all of us, but they quickly fade away. Sometimes he knows our names, sometimes he only knows that we're important to him. Other times, he has no clue who we are, or why we're here. I miss my baby. My husband. My soul mate.

***

"Mrs. Styles, you're torturing him. You're torturing him alive, you need to let him go." The doctor pleaded.

"Lilah, please my love." Harry said weakly. "Let me go.. I'm in so much pain." Harry begged.

"How will I ever go on? There's no place to belong without you.." I wailed.

"Lilah, I love you. I love Darcy, don't you ever forget that. Never. Remember when I said I couldn't dream anymore? When we can't dream any longer, we die." He whispered. His eyes started to flutter.

"HARRY NO! I love you baby! Please, no! Don't close your eyes, Harry!" I pleaded. Tears cascading down my face.

"HELP HIM! DO SOMETHING! HES DYING!" I screamed at the doctors. Harry's eyes were fully closed now, no. No, this isn't happening. No, not yet!

"Wake up, wake up! Please, please.. Don't leave me. Don't. I need you.. I need you."

*******

I stared numbly at the wall, my body pressed against the cold chair which I've been sat in for two hours listening to the therapist drone on about how to handle my loss. My head would turn every now and than when I'd imagine hearing Harrys voice, or feeling his touch. But then I realize that I will never feel, hear, or touch him.. I realize that I'm completely alone and even my heart knows. I don't think I'll ever fully recover from this and I fear that I'll only last so long.. They've took my Husband, daughter, everything.. I'm an empty shell of hopelessness .

"Are you listening, Lilah?" The therapist asked.

"Not really." I said dully.

"Why are you here than?" She sighed.

"Because there is still a part of me hoping that I'll get over this, but deep down I know that I'll never surpass this heart clenching pain."

[K&K]