Into The Darkness. (Completed)

Chapter 19-And I will try to fix you.

Harry's POV.

"I have to go to the Doctors today, do you mind watching Darcy?" I asked my Mum.

"Course not, love! Is Lilah going with you?" I simply nodded my head. Lilah was tying up her shoes at the door, I quickly hugged Mum and Darcy. Lilah and I went hand in hand to the car and separated when I got into the drivers seat. I buckled up and drove slowly to the big Hospital.

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Lilah and I sat in uncomfortable green chairs as the Doctor explained what I needed to do to help get through the first stage of Leukemia, and if this worked then I didn't need to get chemo-therapy. I hope it does work.

"Okay, now we have to discuss medication. We have to build up your immune system so you can fight this. Leukemia is a cancer that attacks the white blood cells in your body which weakens your immune system. You'll need to go on steroids." Richard explained. I looked over at Lilah who just solemnly nodded.

"Two times a day, once in the morning, and again at night." He stated. I nodded, taking the packet and leaving with a curt nod.

"I hate him." Lilah mumbled.

"Stop." I sighed.

"No."

"Why are you making this so hard?!" I yelled.

"Because I love you!" She screamed.

"I know you love me, dammit! But I can't help it if I'm sick, I can't keep trying to sugarcoat everything for you! You have to stop making this harder than it already is! You're stressing me out, I don't need anymore stress, Lilah! Fuck!" I shouted, throwing my hands up in distress.

"I can't stop thinking about the negatives, I'm sorry, Harry." Lilah whispered as tears streamed down her gaunt face. I took her in my arms and sung quietly into her ear to calm her.

"Let me be the one to lift your heart up and save your life,

I don't think you even realize baby you'll be saving mine"

"I love you.." Lilah sighed.

"I love you more than anything in the world, baby."

"More than anything." I added quietly.

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*Lilah's POV*

"I just need some time alone, Harry. Ill be fine. I love you." I kissed his cheek and picked up my guitar, heading to Louis' studio downtown.

"Hey, Zara." I greeted the front desk lady as I entered the studio. She waved me in with a warm smile. I continued back into the studio, sitting down and placing the black headphones over my ears. The microphone in front of me as I sat in the green stool. I adjusted the neck strap on my guitar and started plucking random chords.

"I know

One day eventually

Yeah, I know

One day I'll have to let it all go

But I keep it just in case

Yeah, I keep it just in case".

I sit my guitar down on the ground and begin to think about all the things Harry and I have been through. How much we are about to go through. And honestly it scares me. I sigh and jump off the stool and pace around the studio set-up. I let out a frustrated scream, but eventually pulling myself together and deciding that I should go grocery shopping, we're running low on food anyways.

"Lilah! Lilah, over here!" Paparazzi.. Of fucking course! I sighed and walked quickly into the grocery store, I took a trolly an begun circling the store for necessities.

"Have a nice day, thank you." I said to the cashier. She smiled at me brightly, waving me off. I loaded all my things into the car and drove off to the house. Once I arrived I spotted Niall carting boxes into the new house. Oh, we moved into the house a couple days ago if you're wondering. I hauled all of the bags into the white and brown kitchen, putting them away.

"Harry!" I called.

"He's picking up Darcy from your apartment with his Mum." Niall informed me. I nodded, ripping open the box labeled kitchen. I placed the Tupperware into the drawers and cutlery into other areas that would probably be moved around but for now it will be fine.

"Niall! What do you want for dinner?" I called.

"Nando's sounds wonderful!" I shook my head at the Irishmen, smiling. The boy loves his Nando's.

"I suppose so, I'll be right back. Tell Harry where I am if he shows up!" I explained. Walking out of the door I made my way to Nando's.

"Hello! Welcome to Nando's, what can I get you?" A cheery, yet annoying voice said.

"2 chicken pitas, 4 orders of Peri Peri chicken.. A cookie, and 3 cokes." I responded.

"$42.08." I handed her the money while I was being told to wait in a sea until my order was called. 15 minutes later my order was called and I was on my way home to my family. I pulled up into the driveway and hauled the bags of food with me. Harrys' car was parked next to mine, showing he was home.

I sat the food on the counter and grabbed my food and Darcy's, Harry took his and Niall almost took his and Anne's, pig.

We all sat around the table, no one daring to speak and interrupt the silence that is so deadly yet so comforting, not even Darcy. We all had a strained look on our faces as we chewed, mostly because the food had no flavor at a time like this, and no one really cared about eating, besides Niall of course. The house didn't feel like a home, and it never would if Harry didn't make it, or if he stayed sick. I couldn't comprehend it in my mind fully, how someone who was so full of life, could go to a sickly being.

Life isn't fair, and I've known this my entire life. But to have something so perfect, our family, being ripped at the seams, it's seems a little extreme. Everyday is given to you as a gift, but what happens if your last present is death, when you have only received so little amount of gifts..? I wish I could be the one with the cancer, because I know Harry could cope with me dying. But I couldn't, I would take one look at Darcy and burst out I tears just because of the resemblance. I couldn't look into her same green eyes without choking up. I couldn't be the parent she deserves, he could.

I brought my hand to my face, not realizing that a tear had silently made its way down my face. I quickly wiped it and excused myself from the table. I went all the way up the stairs to the last door at the end of the hall and pushed it open. I walked the stairs to the roof and laid on my back, looking at the stars. I closed my eyes shut and pretended that for a moment.. Everything was perfect. I imagined Harry's strong, yet gentle arms wrapping me up in a hug, his lips making their way all over my face with silly kisses. But it's too bad that day dreams couldn't be reality, because when I opened my eyes it all came back, the horror of all these events swirling in my mind, jumbling my brain up so I couldn't think straight.

I wish I could make it all better, like a boo boo on the knee. But I can't, and I hate it. It's tearing me up into pieces.

Somedays I wish I was a child again, things would be so much simpler.

[Written by Kit <3 ]