Into The Darkness. (Completed)

Ch.23 I kissed Louis!

"I kissed Louis!"

"You.. What?" He drops his hands, his bottom lip quivering.

"I kissed him." I say shamefully.

"Why?" He whispers.

"I.. I don't know. And I feel really bad about it Harry, you have to know that I love you and I didn't do it intentionally. It just happened. I'm sorry, I really am."

"Why would you do that to me?"

"After all of this? After all of this shit that's happening to us? No, Lilah I can't." He says.

"You can't what?"

"I can't deal with this, and everything else! And I won't. Are you here with me, are you even listening!" He yells.

"Of course I'm listening! I'm here with you, Harry. I made a mistake, and I'm sorry! I'll leave if you want."

"But please, don't make me." I whimper.

"I just don't understand why you would do that. Maybe I haven't been there for you, maybe I haven't shown you enough affection in awhile. But I'm dying." He sits on the couch, his head in his hands.

"No you're not, we're gonna get through this. Remember? We're gonna try Chemo, Harry please."

"I don't want chemo." He murmurs.

I stare at him helplessly, I've dug myself a grave and I'm pulling him in with me. I messed up, I kissed Louis. I'm acting like a total bitch half the time. I'm over dramatic, I don't try enough.

"Just leave." Harry says.

"But-"

"I said go!" He yells. I jump back, and run into my room, packing an overnight bag. I get Darcy's bag and pack hers as well, not wanting to leave her here when he's angry.

"C'mon baby." I pick Darcy up from the couch beside Harry and sling the bags over my shoulder.

"Where are you taking her?" Harry snaps.

"To Liam's."

"Leave her here." He says, holding his arms out for Darcy.

"She's my daughter." I quip.

"She's my daughter too!" He shouts.

"Daddy!" Darcy cries.

"It's not like she wants you anyways." Harry seethes. Tears sting my eyes as I hand Darcy to Harry, he's right. Darcy doesn't want me, she wants him. My lips shake as I form a small goodbye and walk out the door with only my bag.

I get in my car and slam my hand down on the steering wheel, resting my forehead on it as I drown in tears. My body trembles as I try to put the key in the ignition, it's cold out and my hand won't stop shaking. I drop the key on the ground.

I finally find the key and shove it into the ignition, starting the car. I turn the heat up and drive to Liam's house, hoping for a place to stay for a couple days. Once I get to the front door my hands are completely froze and my face is as red as a cherry. I knock a couple times and the door opens to reveal Danielle.

"Oh, honey." Danielle says as she pulls me inside. At this point my cheeks are soaked with tears, and Danielle is coaxing me to tell her what happened. Which I did.

"I understand why he's mad. But he doesn't need to basically say your child doesn't want you, or throw you out of your home." Danielle says.

"He had the right to.. I'm a horrible person. I'm a cheater, I would throw myself out too!" I say, sighing.

"People make mistakes Lilah. We've all made mistakes, and you of all people should know that Harry says some pretty messed up things when he's upset." Danielle responds.

"Yeah.. Just hopefully it blows over by the morning. I don't want to intrude for long." I flash a small smile her way.

"You'd never be intruding! You know where the guest room is, how about you get some rest?" She suggest, pushing me towards the guest room.

"Okay, okay. Goodnight Danielle." I smile, walking to the guest room. I put my bag on the floor and crawl into the bed in my jeans. I clutch the pillow, pretending its Harry's torso, and close my eyes.

**

When I wake up its 6am, and my phone is ringing on full volume. I reach over and press the green key, not bothering to check who it is.

"Hello?" I say groggily.

"You need to come home, I have to go to the studio and my Mum is busy." Harry snaps.

"Alright, I'm on my way." I say quietly.

"Okay." Awkward silence.

"I love you." I whisper.

"I love you too.." He sighs and hangs up. Well there's a start, right? I get out of bed quietly and pull on a new pair of jeans, putting on my shoes afterwords. I pack my bag back up and text Danielle, telling her I left.

Once I get to the front door my heat is beating rapidly and my nerves are out of control. What if we get into another argument? I unlock the door and step inside, taking off my shoes.

"Harry?" I call out.

"I'm in the living room." He answers dully. I walk into the living room and see Harry buttoning his coat. He looks up at me, quickly looking back down.

"I'll be back at 3, Darcy should be up in about two hours." Harry says like I don't know.

"I know, she's my daughter too." I snap.

"Let's not start this, I'll be back. Bye." He says. He kisses my cheek lightly, which surprises me. He walks out the door and closes is quietly.

I lay down on the couch with my head on a pillow, and think of all the reasons Harry should have left me already.

|| Hey guys! This was written by Kit! (:

I hope you like it? & I'm sorry for the rood author note at the end of the last chapter.

Family things were ruining my day.

Merry Christmas! ||