How To Love (Chris Brown)

How To Love XIX

The Next Morning

Aaleeyah

Waking up the next morning had me feeling concerned and depressed. I was thinking what if Chris doesn't come back and claim his child? I'm really not depending on being a single mother. But I'll do anything to protect my unborn from any kind of danger or abandonment. I love Chris more than you could ever know, but I can't be with someone who abandons their own child and girlfriend/best friend/ baby mama. If Chris decides to never some back; then that shit is his own fucking problem. I'm not going to baby him and tell his ass what to or not to do. Chris is his own fucking man and has the freedom to do whatever and whenever he wants too.

I stared up at the ceiling for a couple of seconds thinking of names for the baby. I may be only 3-4 months pregnant, but I can never be more careful.

Seconds later, I felt my stomach get nauseous again. I rapidly got out of bed and threw up in the toilet. I basically threw up everything that I ever had done. I realize now that I have to change my ways. Not for Chris, but for me and my unborn child. After throwing up, I rinsed my mouth and brushed my teeth. Then I took a shower and got dressed. I put on a blank tank top, army cargo pants, and black flats. I put my hair in a messy bun and headed out.

I needed some air because I just needed something to do. I went to the old park that the crew and I used to hang out at when we were kids. I swear we went to this park for everything. It didn't matter what reason was; we just needed a place to clear our heads. This is a place that I had so memories and now it will be a place that I will use to clear my head. Especially of all the internal problems and dramas that is going on right now.

Chris

I woke up with brain confusion. I didn't know what happened last night and I didn't want to find out either. I turned over and saw this girl sleeping. We didn't fuck last night because we both had our clothes on. I then realized who the girl was and smiled. I slowly got out of bed and went downstairs into the kitchen. I grabbed a beer and opened it. I didn't bother to attempt to drink it because I had a lot of things on my mind right now. 

I snapped out of my thoughts when Jade came downstairs. I had to admit that Jade is so fucking sexy. I want her body so bad, but she will never sleep with me anyways.

"I'm going to head out." Jade said putting on her heels.

"That's fine. I'll call you later?" I said.

"Yea of course." Jade said.

"Maybe we'll hang out later." I said.

"Maybe." Jade said smiling.

I smiled back and walked over to Jade. Jade looked at me and gave me a hug. She knew that I want her and that's why she gave me a hug. 

"I'll see you later." Jade said heading out.

"Yea okay." I said.

"What's that supposed to mean?" Jade asked.

"Nothing." I said. 

"Oh come on. Do you want me to leave?" Jade asked. 

"No not really." I said. 

"Why?" Jade questioned.

"Because..." I stopped.

"Because what?" Jade asked.

"It's nothing." I said.