Trust Me (Cameron Dallas Fanfic)

chapter 9

nayas pov :
Once he had calmed me down enough to talk he apologized again and then asked me a question I never thought I would hear come out of his mouth "Naya do you want to come with me to magcon" I had tears in my eyes I hugged him so tight and I only let go when I heard the bell ring..
Cam went to the door and he screamed so I ran up and I saw Hayes Nash and Matt! I didn't think they would be here for another two weeks but it was such a good surprise I needed them here now. I made eye contact with Matt and Nash and they signaled me to go upstairs which means they needed to check on me. I was in my room for about ten mins before they got up there and sat me down on my bed. Nash spoke first "naya how have you been feeling, is there anything you want to tell us because if we find out for ourselfs it will be more heartbreaking" he was talking about me showing my cuts but I thought I could get away without them actually looking. so I put on a smile and hugged them and told them I have been fine for awhile now and I'm happy. Matt looked at me funny and that showed me they didn't believe me, he gently grabbed my arms and rolled up my sleeves. his eyes were already filled with tears as his fingers rubbed against the rough parts of my skin were the scars were already forming. once he took a look a tear fell on my fresh cuts and it burned a little I winced in pain and looked at Nash who was watching Matt go over the scars. I hate myself so much for causing them pain it's not fair to them. just because I am worthless and in pain doesn't mean they should suffer for me, it made me feel worse about myself and I started to scratch at my new cuts. my breathing picked up and soon I couldn't control it. I was having a panic attack Infront of them and I was so embarrassed, they tried to stop me from scratching myself and tried to talk to me to calm me down but they made it worse my lungs started to hurt.

matts pov :
seeing her with cuts on her arms hurts me so much, I was sliding my fingers on her scars when she started to scratch them and her breathing picked up she fell on her side on the bed with her head on Nash's lap gasping and scratching her new cuts which started to bleed. she was struggling to get words out but I could hear her say it hurts to breath. I looked at her trying to calm her down as best as I could but I know you just have to wait out a panic attack like this. it pained me so much to see her like this I wish I could take all this pain away from her.
Nash pov :
when she laid her head on my lap all I could do was brush my fingers through her hair to try to calm her down, I heard her say it hurt to breath and she mumbled something that I don't think Matt heard but I did. she said she wished she would have killed herself already and I just looked at her with so much pain in my eyes because it hurts so much to see someone you love go through this. she doesn't deserve this she's a wonderful little girl with the most down to earth personality. And I wish I could just take away her suffering and make her the happy girl she is meant to be