I Crave For Her More Than Ever Now But I Cant Never Have Her. I Blame Myself Though Because I Was Too Stupid To Not Realize What A Queen She Really Is. Its Too Late To Fix Or Reconnect Anything Between Us. Only If I Had The Chance To Start Over...
I Will Admit I Needed That Sleep. This Is Why I Love Cyn Because She Barely Got Ain't Got No Bad Bone In Her Body And She Is Very Kind To Others. Cyn Could Have Kicked Me Out And Took Me Home Instead Of Me Being Me. She Likes Helping And Doing Good Stuff For People Other Than Herself. Also She Wouldn't Hurt A Fly Unless She Has Too. I'm Still Figuring Out How She End Up Loving Me And We Are Complete Opposites. I'm The Definition Of Bad But I Sort Of Still Do Have A Heart, Which Is Because Of Her. I Hear Cyn Faintly Humming To King From A Distance. I Follow Her Voice And Ended Up In King Nursery Room.......
Erica: " I Thought You Took It Down When We Broke Up" Leaning Against The Door Frame Looking At Her.
Cyn: " I Meant To But I Couldn't " Still Looking Down At King. " How Was Your Nap? Oh The Food Is Almost Done"
Erica: " I Really Needed It But Now I Need A Bath. What Did You Cook " I Walk Around The Crib Looking Around.
Cyn: " I Made Som- Oh Shit Erica Y'all Showcase Is Tonight" She Jumps Up From The Chair.
Erica: " Well I'm Going To Be Home where I Belong" I Said Laughing.
Cyn: " Girl Yo Ass Better Eat, Feed The Baby, And Get A Quick Shower Because This Is For Three Test Grades. Unless You Up For Book Word" Laying King In His Crib.
Erica: " Let Me Remind You I Haven't Been In School In Two Months And That Song Is Stupid. That Dytto Girl Can Dance And Sing The Song Her Damnself. I Don't Even Know How To Sing The High Notes. Why The Fuck The Crib Is So Low?"
She Got Me Fucked Up. I'm Passing Her Class With An A+. My Body Hu-
Cyn: " Oh Never mind That's Two Weeks From Now. * Looking At Her Phone* but You Are My Student And One Night Wouldn't Kill You. Bitch I'm Fun Size Just Like Everything Else In My House" Rolling Her Eyes As She Takes MySon.
Erica: " That's Why A Knot Stayed On My Forehead Dealing With Your Short Ass" Rubbing My Forehead.
Cyn: " Its Not My Fault Your Sperm Donor Thought Fucking A Short Woman Will Make The Child Average" Laughing Her Ass Off.
Erica: " So Is Short Stacks With His White Rick Ross Ass. That Reminds Me Why Did You Pair Me Up With The Ugly Beast" Glaring At Her With My Arms Crossed Across My Chest.
Cyn: " Keep Talking Shit About Blaze Before She End Up Cutting You. I'm Not Saving You"
That Bitch Can Suck My Toe For All I Care. Her Wanna Be Nicki Minaj Ass. Fuck Her Best Friend Chrissy Too. That's Why Chinx Won't Leave His Girl For Her. Crying Over Dick....Smh. It Just Awkwardly Silent Again.
Erica: " So Umm........"
Cyn: " I Think The Food Is Done" Giving Me King Back As She Smiles.
Erica: " Why Do You Always Smile? Even During The Bad Times" She Turns Around Looking At Me With The Same Smile On Her Face.
Cyn: " Because That's The One Thing No One Can't Take Away From Me" She Said Before Walking Out Leaving Me Standing In The Middle Of The Nursery.
I Had To Walk Out Because It Made Me Feel Uncomfortable. Right Now I Need A Distraction. I Love Cooking In Peace But Music Wouldn't Hurt This Time. It Helps Clear My Mind Anyways Because I Am An Emotional Mess On The Inside.
🎤 Oh, it's just me, myself and I Solo ride until I die Cause I got me for life (Got me for life, yeah) Oh I don't need a hand to hold Even when the night is cold I got that fire in my soul 🎤
I Jumped Once I Felt Her Arms And My Body Grew Stiff Because Her Touch Feels Cold To Me Still But I Still Crave Her Touch. No Cyn Not This Time!
Cyn: " Erica What Are You Doing" Still Stirring The Noddles.
Erica: " What Does it Look I'm Doing? I Am Holding You" Snuggling Her Head In My Neck.
Cyn: " Well As You Can See I'm Cooking And Know I Don't like Being Bothered While I'm Cooking. Second You Are My Student And This Is Very Inappropriate. So Back Up And Feed And King. Then Start Your Homework." Slightly Pushing Her Off Me Gently.
Erica: " Oooo Its Like That Know" Backing Up As I Wish.
She Lucky I Didn't Push Her Away And Acknowledge Her At My Door Step. I Gave Her That " What Are You Waiting For " Mean Mug. Just Because You Are Here Don't Mean You Can Touch Me.
Erica: "Okay Ms.Santana " Leaving The Kitchen Without Another Word.
I Take A Breather As I Sit Down. I Am Not Being Harsh But I'm Not Falling For Her Lies And Tricks Like I'm Her Bitch. Not Anymore. Nu Uh Not This Cyn Santa-
" MAAAAAA" Running Through The House
Cyn: " Oh Shit! " I Mumbled To Myself
I Put The Food On Low And I See My Lil Man Just As Happy As He Can Be With His Big Head Daddy Is Standing At The Door.
Cyn: " Hey My Big Man" Picking Him Up As I Ruffle His Hair. " Whatcha Got There Buddy" Pointing At The Ball In His Hands.
" Ball Mama " Playing With The Lines Of It.
Cyn: " That's Right Baby. Good Job" Kissed His Cheek.
Ray: " No Hello" Still Standing There.
Cyn: " Yeah Now Good Bye" Waving Off
Ray: " Come On Cyn And I'm Hungry" Still Irritating Me.
Cyn: " Then Go Home. Tell your Daddy Bye Bye Jose" Putting Him Down.
Jose: " Bye Bye Da Da My Mama" Pushing Him Out The Door.
Ray: " He Get That Shit From You And Daddy Loves You Too " Kissed Him On The Cheek Before Leaving.
Jose Raymond Santana Is The Best Thing That Came Out That Miserable Marriage. He's Now Two Going Five At The Rate He Is Going. Ray Took Him To A Basketball Game For Some Father And Son Time Before He Go To " Work". He Better Not Be Kissing These Hoes While He Kissing Our Son.
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Now This Little Nugget Loves Erica And Cry For Her At Night Sometimes Because He Liked To Sleep With Her At Night When She Stayed Over And Kiss All Over Her Belly. It Was To Cute.
Cyn: " Come On Buddy. I Have A Surprise For You" Readjusting Him On My Hip.
I Walked Into King's Nursery And Peaked In Before I Walked In. She Was Crying With King On Her Breast But Quickly Wiped Them Away As Soon As I Walked With Jose In My Arms.
Jose: " Wicaaa ( Erica) Mama Baby" Jumping Out Of My Arms, Which Scared Me.
This Little Boy Still Has Energy In Him And Just Came From A Basketball Game.
Erica: " Wait Slow Down Buddy" Laughing As She Put Him On Her Leg." Be Careful Okay. The Baby Is Very Small" Pulling Him Into Her.
Jose: " Mama Wook ( Look) " Pointing At The Baby.
Cyn: " I Know Baby" Smiling At Him As Her Lay With King's Little Mini Sausage Toes.
Him And E Start To Half Their Own Little Conversation As I Just Stare Out Of Amusement. Sometimes I Wish Me And Ray Could Do This For Jose But Life Doesn't Work In Your Favor. I'm Just Happy My Son Is Happy.
