I Crave For Her More Than Ever Now But I Cant Never Have Her. I Blame Myself Though Because I Was Too Stupid To Not Realize What A Queen She Really Is. Its Too Late To Fix Or Reconnect Anything Between Us. Only If I Had The Chance To Start Over...
Cyn Isn't Still Too Happy With Me. I Tried Washing Off The Kids While She Can Relax When I'm The One That is Supposed To Be Down. She Still Wouldn't Look Me In The Eye. She Knows I'm Messy, So Why Try With Me From The Geico?
" Wita( Rica) No Twy(Cry)" Wiping My Tears While He's Half Asleep In My Arms
" I'm Just Sleepy Buddy...Like You Should Be Going" Putting His Binkie Back Into His Mouth And Continuing Rocking Him
I'm Currently Trying To Put The Last One Down For The Night Since He Was Giving Cyn A Hardtime. Night Time With Daddy Didn't Even Put Him To Sleep. I've Been Up Since The Babies Probably Won't Sleep Long And Cyn Has To Work Tomorrow. She's Currently Showering And Enjoying Her " Me Time"....Something I Already Miss. Plus Cyn( The Baby) Has To Have Breathing Treatments And Extra Care Than King. With Jose Up, It's Gonna Be Hard
" Baby Go To Sleep"
" No You Go Away Whe' I Clo' Eye Wita" Pointing At His Eyes....Gawd He's So Much Like Cyn When We Used To Live Together
" I'll Be The First Thing You'll See In The Morning But You Have To Close Your Eyes First"
" Swap(Slap) Pwomise( Promise)" Looking At Me With His Beautiful Eyes...He Actually Has My Eyes Instead Of His Parents
" Yes But Don't Slap Too Hard Bubba"
He Smile Throughout His Paci And A Slap To The Face With His Tiny Hands
" Ooooo Buddy....Thats One Big Of A Slap" Holding My Face Exaggerating While He Just Giggles
I Play Slap His Face And Giggles Again
" Yoou Shoft( Soft) Wita(Rica)" Holding His Face
" And You Need To Sleep Now" Getting Up With Him In My Arms
I Put Him To Bed And His Night Light On With His Play Music Alone Cyn Herself Made For Him
" Wuv You Wita" Giving Me A Big Juicy Kiss On The Cheek And A Peck On The Lips
" Love You Too Lil Man" Giving Him A Peck Back Before Leaving Him In Peace And Peeping Room In Between His Room Door
Now I'm Officially Alone And Peacefulish...Cyn Is Upstairs In The Shower, Listening To The Weekend. I Lay Back On The Couch With All The Baby Monitors And Gripping On To Pillow. My Body Is In Pain Right Now But I'm Fighting Through It. I'm Not Having Anymore Kids In The Future.
" What Do I Do Lord? Give Me A Sign Or Something To Tell Me What To Do. I'll Do Anything For The Sadness Go Away " Glaring At The Sealing Holding Our Picture She Kept In A Frame
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I Still Remember That Day As Of If It Was Me
Flashback
" Babe I Do Have Homework" Giggling As She Huddles Over Me
This Woman Needs Some Homework Herself....We All Thought Jose Was Enough But Nap Time Be Having Her Turnt
" You Can Do That Baby...I Simply Just Want To Cuddle With You And My Baby" Rubbing My Belly
She Finally Accepted My Baby But Raul Isn't Allowed To Come Near Me Unless Its A Doctor's Appointment
" Yeah Yeah...Then Explain The Selfie Stick...Go Cuddle With Jose" Playing Pushing Her Off
" No He Replaced Me With A Teddy Bear And I Told Him I Won't Talk To Him Since Hes Gotta Big Bear. Guess What He Did Girl"
" What He Do Baby"
" He Strugged His Shoulders And The Bear Took My Cuddles Then I Came Here For You But You Ain't Letting Me Slide Your Dm...Your Soft Boobs Of Course" Just Grinning Her Face Off Like She Won A Prize And Did Some Creepy Shit With Her Eyebrows
" And That's Why They Stay Sore Cyn Lol...But That Doesn't Explain The Selfie Stick"
" Oh Yea I Want A Picture Since You Are Sexy When You Are Focused" Biting Down On Her Bottom Lip
" Hell Nahhh You Ain't Finna Grill My Ass For Not Doing My Work In Front Of Class" Playfully Pushing Her Off
She Sits Up And Pout Like A Damn Child
" Come On Big Baby....Lets Take A Damn Selfie" She Squeals With Excitement While I Just Shake My Head
Flashback Over
"All For A Picture" Laughing At Myself... Thats The Cyn I Miss But I Can't Have That
She Want Love And Affec-
" Oooh Shit How Can I Be So Stupid"
I Barged Upstairs But Slowly Into The Room To Not Disturb Her Shower. Slowly I Take Off My Clothes Strip By Strip As She Sings. That's One Of The Many Things I Love About Her.
" Mmmmm..Mmmm When My Sister Was On Stage, Killing It Like A Muthafucka...I Was Enraged Feeling It Like Muthafucka. Bird In A Cage, You've Would Have Never Know What I Was Dealing With It. Went Our Separate Ways But I Was Happy She Was Killing It" I Wonder Why She Neve- Actually Has Tried But Didn't Feel it I Guess
I Gradually Walk Into The Bathroom On My Tippy Toes And She Has The Shower Door Opened
" Yes" I Silently Yelled To Myself
With The Door Already Opened, I Slowly Step In And Started Drooling Over Her Body. The Water Drips From Her Long Hair, Down To Her Perfect Lips. Her Titties Hard As The Water Drips Slowly Down Her Back. That Ass All Wet And Moisturize Got Me Off Edge. I Dragged My Fingers Down Her Back Sens-
BOOM!
I Felt Something Hard And Eventually Blacked Out And Slowly Fade Away
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